The internet is hell, and I really wish I hadn't, but I did...
So because I really needed to know I read what happens in the rest of Queer as Folk, because I REALLY needed to know… Well, I guess what I thought would happen, happens, which has suddenly plunged me into the depths of depression… How stupidly sad is that… *Blugh* I do feel really depressed… God… I also found out that what I had seen before is from the 4th series, and not the last one like I thought… Not that it matters much…
You know what I just read what happens in more depth at the end and I’m crying for gods sake… I can’t cope with it, and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to watch it, or anymore of it… Ever… I think I’ll just die… Like I am now… I’ll tell you one thing, I bet that nothing could ever be quite as moving… God, I just wish that I never bothered… It sounds just like Escaflowne or FFX or Kingdom hearts… And if I had to pick the saddest ending, and the best ending from anything, they would be there, right at the top… Because as much I love the reunion of FFX-2 or Kingdom hearts 2, nothing beats the pure perfection of the partings of the first games… I hate it, more than anything, I hate bitter sweet things, things that go so far then decide that no, that’s not what I want, but really I do… I’ve just this second remembered Bishounen… That film killed me as well… And Doctors… That never gets mentioned anywhere, at all, ever… Granted it was a daytime soap here in the UK, and not on American TV, but still you would have thought someone would have mentioned it somewhere… Greg and Rico married, and left to live together along with Rico’s son… It was ridiculously sweet, and romantic, and perfect… Yet none in America seems to even know of the program… Not surprising, I only watched it for a while, missing the wedding and the rest of the run up… *Sigh* But there was something awesome about watching a gay love story at 2.00 in the afternoon… And I must point out that it came about a year before Noah and Luke’s ‘first daytime gay soap kiss’. I’m not stupid or anything but I’m pretty sure 2006 came before 2007... I’m just saying…
I also noted when watching Queer as Folk that Brian and Justin’s relationship is so achingly similar to Yuki and Shuichi’s from gravitation, I don’t think that is really helping with my angst… I wish to some extent that I had never read what happens, granted I don’t think that would have changed anything, considering I would have watched what happened anyway… *Cries* I wonder if I can forget about it? I mean who knows by the time I have enough to money to buy the rest I might not even care… I might even not like them together anymore, I’m finding that ridiculously hard to believe *laugh*. This whole thing is reminding me of Craig and John Paul, and how they parted, I cried and shouted at the TV… And then they went off together, and I cried like a little girl… Technically Yuki and Shuichi aren’t together at the end of the Anime, so I guess they really do have more in common than I thought… I’m not helping myself… I’ve been reading a lot about QAF, and it seems that most people hated it, kinda anyway… Hmmm, I guess The internet is hell after all…
When watching the first series, I often found myself comparing Brian to Dean from Supernatural… How very odd…
I also have to point out right now that the whole prom bit will stay with me for all time. The way that he shows up, the way he screams Justin’s name, how he smiles at Justin walking away, the way that even with Michel holding on to him he doesn’t notice him, how he stares strait ahead at the hospital room, how he thinks of them running down the hall after Gus was born, and how he cries, and how he still doesn’t even seem to notice that Michel is even there, the dance it’s self… Everything about it. The shows starts with Michel telling us all how everything changed once Justin showed up… And I really believe that in spit of everything that’s true, that the end is nothing more than a start to those changes, yes a lot happens over the series‘, but the end is clearly where they all come to a head, and maybe one day the end would only ever be seen as the start.
How very insightful, considering…
Anyhoo, I’m of I’ve finally gotten over what was killing me before, though I don’t expect that series 5 will ever grace my house, but how knows… I’ve finally finished scanning all my Doujinshi covers (I think anyway…) so I’mm going to resize them all and post them over at Smidges-room, I’m sure this is going to be loads of fun…