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im a fucking moron. im only good at fucking up. and i hate how nothing ever goes right in this piece of shit life. for all the people that fucking hate me i hope your happy because i've given up. for the people that i care about and that care about me i hope i made a good impression on you like you have to me. andy and andrew you two are more like brothers to me than my own two brothers who hate my existance, because im nothing like them. my parents think im a failure and yes i've been told this. they are always telling me that they'll throw me out. im the fuckup because i've done nothing but work full time jobs since i dropped out of highschool. i want to finish when i get the chance but it's kind of hard when you work everyday. neither of my two brothers have graduated and neither of them know what it's like to work a real job. they come home smelling like weed everyday, my friends notice it but my parents dont for some reason. yet they pull me aside and ask me if im doing any drugs because of the way my friends look. sorry im not normal. im sorry for all the people that i've offended or hurt in this life. hopefully we can make up for it in the next. i have lost my faith and i dont like that. for myself to not even know if anything that i ever believed in makes me feel low. to say God will forgive me sounds arrogant. I HOPE GOD WILL FORGIVE ME.