meh
ever have one of those days where you cant stand yourself? i feel so undeserving of anything right now. i know ill never be some gorgeous girl. and im not perfect, far from it. im selfish and lazy and critical and probably a lot more negative things. some days it feels like they all just out weigh whatever good things there are in me. physically and by my personality and characteristics, i feel ugly.
im pretty tired. seems to be the normal with me. i have work a lot this week. oh well, tomorrow's friday and then i can sleep in. fridays dont come quick enough, and the weekends go by too fast. well i better go to work now
bye.
ps i forgot to say that im also impatient, crude, and at times disrespectful. i interupt people, i dont like to hear bad things, i dont like to wait to listen to lots of description. i am a horrible listener. i talk like i am 10. i am closed minded when it comes to doing things. i dont come up with things to do very well. i have a hard time saying what i really mean, i write it a lot better. i like to sleep too much. i whine. i bicker. i am stubborn. i probably say "i" a lot. i am like my mom even though i hate her. i hate how i look mostly because i hate myself. i am judgemental. i probably have judged you. i probably lie. i am always late. i'll be late for work. i am frustrated easily. i cannot find things in my room. i curse. i laugh off extreme anger. i ignore questions i dont like to answer. this list could go on forever. obsessive, controlling, jealous, envious, greedy, mean.
im pretty tired. seems to be the normal with me. i have work a lot this week. oh well, tomorrow's friday and then i can sleep in. fridays dont come quick enough, and the weekends go by too fast. well i better go to work now
bye.
ps i forgot to say that im also impatient, crude, and at times disrespectful. i interupt people, i dont like to hear bad things, i dont like to wait to listen to lots of description. i am a horrible listener. i talk like i am 10. i am closed minded when it comes to doing things. i dont come up with things to do very well. i have a hard time saying what i really mean, i write it a lot better. i like to sleep too much. i whine. i bicker. i am stubborn. i probably say "i" a lot. i am like my mom even though i hate her. i hate how i look mostly because i hate myself. i am judgemental. i probably have judged you. i probably lie. i am always late. i'll be late for work. i am frustrated easily. i cannot find things in my room. i curse. i laugh off extreme anger. i ignore questions i dont like to answer. this list could go on forever. obsessive, controlling, jealous, envious, greedy, mean.