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I feel like writing an essay of my thoughts. But really I don't know everything I'm feeling this moment. Well that's okay...here it goes.
I'm sick of waking up and going to school everyday. It's lost all it's "fun" and finer points. I don't look forward to any classes. Honestly I'm tired of the people. Everyone. Each and every one of them. I feel so tired all the time and so old. Like I feel older than I should. Probably because I'm a lot more tired than I used to be. My back hurts. First period really wears you out. I don't even need to take one yet I do cuz I screwed up my schedule. I'm in luv with Nate. And it sucks. Everything about that sucks. I hate liking him. Luving, liming, liking, loving, appreciating, dedicating, committing, all that. All that for him. It's not worth it. He's not worth it. No matter how much I feel he is. He really isn't. I should'nt care so much about someone who's just turned 14. I'm going to be 16 in less than 2 months. I can't wait for my birthday. I really miss my old friends. Pinecrest. I miss that so much. I wish I didn't take it all for granted. I realize how amazing it was there. I had like 5 best friends. Honestly there was not that much drama and school was not that hard. I didn't have to deal with being broken-hearted over stupid immature boys. I didn't give my heart away..I'm so scared to grow up. In a little over half a school year I won't be a sophomore anymore. How fast time goes. How the hell did I end up being here? It seems like just yesterday I was in 8th grade or even 6th grade. I'll be going to college in 2 1/2 years. It's so scary to think about.
Yes that's it. Interesting no? No not really but that's okay.
♥
Today was a good day. I didn't even have to use my AK, at least I didn't get my heart broken anyway. Wasting time in east New Jersey. Guess I could tell you about the snow covered rooftops, sunsets, shooting stars and picturesque backdrops. Or how I went and hung out at Quick-Stop and pretended that I was in clerks. Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that you're not gonna live forever. Be young, think smart, stay true, and just follow your heart. Remember the times we watched "Karate Kid" and memorized every line? Skipped school and went to the arcade, hung out and played Galaga all day. Stole a car and we drove to Michigan. Six hundred miles with no destination except to get in the car and drive and see where we'll end up. Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that you're not gonna be young forever. Think smart, have fun, stay true, and don't ever grow up. Out of all I've learned in life you always keep your friends close to your heart. 'Cause who will help you if you're falling down? And everything is okay.
I'm sick of waking up and going to school everyday. It's lost all it's "fun" and finer points. I don't look forward to any classes. Honestly I'm tired of the people. Everyone. Each and every one of them. I feel so tired all the time and so old. Like I feel older than I should. Probably because I'm a lot more tired than I used to be. My back hurts. First period really wears you out. I don't even need to take one yet I do cuz I screwed up my schedule. I'm in luv with Nate. And it sucks. Everything about that sucks. I hate liking him. Luving, liming, liking, loving, appreciating, dedicating, committing, all that. All that for him. It's not worth it. He's not worth it. No matter how much I feel he is. He really isn't. I should'nt care so much about someone who's just turned 14. I'm going to be 16 in less than 2 months. I can't wait for my birthday. I really miss my old friends. Pinecrest. I miss that so much. I wish I didn't take it all for granted. I realize how amazing it was there. I had like 5 best friends. Honestly there was not that much drama and school was not that hard. I didn't have to deal with being broken-hearted over stupid immature boys. I didn't give my heart away..I'm so scared to grow up. In a little over half a school year I won't be a sophomore anymore. How fast time goes. How the hell did I end up being here? It seems like just yesterday I was in 8th grade or even 6th grade. I'll be going to college in 2 1/2 years. It's so scary to think about.
Yes that's it. Interesting no? No not really but that's okay.
♥
Today was a good day. I didn't even have to use my AK, at least I didn't get my heart broken anyway. Wasting time in east New Jersey. Guess I could tell you about the snow covered rooftops, sunsets, shooting stars and picturesque backdrops. Or how I went and hung out at Quick-Stop and pretended that I was in clerks. Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that you're not gonna live forever. Be young, think smart, stay true, and just follow your heart. Remember the times we watched "Karate Kid" and memorized every line? Skipped school and went to the arcade, hung out and played Galaga all day. Stole a car and we drove to Michigan. Six hundred miles with no destination except to get in the car and drive and see where we'll end up. Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that you're not gonna be young forever. Think smart, have fun, stay true, and don't ever grow up. Out of all I've learned in life you always keep your friends close to your heart. 'Cause who will help you if you're falling down? And everything is okay.