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Jul 12, 2011 03:05

[Filter; Archangels]

I’m just going to fall, aren’t I?

No matter how much I go to church, no matter how much I pray. I’m just going to fall, all of you think it. All of you think that I’m going to tumble off this narrow line and into the black. All of you think that I can’t possibly get better from this, that I can’t possibly do anything to drag myself away from this. You don’t say it to me, of course you don’t say it to me, but I can see it there. Under the praise, under the assurances - all of you are just waiting for that day that I’m going to be lost forever. All of you are going to turn from me, and I know it.

…And you’d probably be better off without me, too. You don’t deserve all the drama, all the hurt, all the pain. You were happier before I came along, you’d probably be happier if I just went out of your lives again. If I just tried somewhere else because I hurt you all so much.

But I can never say this to you.

…I’m sorry.

I’m sorry.

Are you all alright?

[Filter; Samael]

That includes you, even if you still aren’t talking to us.

[Filter; Azazel]

When I fall-

…No, it’d probably hurt them more.

[Public]

Still praying for all your souls, still finding church beautiful. I hope everybody has been enjoying the current weather?

samael, death, raphael, gabriel, michael, loki, eos, famine, agrat bat mahlat, azazel

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