It has been so long.
HELLO GUYS.
The last time I updated was probably just one sentence, talking about my last paper. Was that it? Well, it is my last paper tomorrow. HAHA. Last exam of my three years of study. I have to pass. It will be such a waste to retake a module at the last minute. Next semester would be internship.
I don't think anyone views livejournal anymore, so the chance of this post being read is really low. Still, just in case anyone was wondering how I was doing... here I am.
Summarizing my eight months, a lot has happened this year. January was just heartbreaking, February was a link to that story and broke my heart to so much more pieces. March was ok. April and May was both popular and heartbreaking. June was tiring emotionally and physically (it was fasting month). July was busy. August, this month, well, better I guess. All in all, it is heartbreaking everyday and I don't know who to trust.
Even my birthday was a whole day of not knowing what to do, how to react. I would love to tell the whole story just to get it out of my system but I'd rather not. I'd get angry, frustrated, sad, then get confused all over again. I lost people, I lost myself. Now, I'm just tryna pursue myself because I can't do shit about people. Even though it's within myself, it's not that easy. What happened in the first 3 months of the year was too much for me. I then made new friends and was starting to feel better but two of them kept hurting me because of each other (and myself, let's just be honest lol). Complicating shit. It is sort of over now but it just got settled so at least that's done. I'm still recovering from January-March drama.
I have also been too busy dealing with myself that I only have time to buy JUMP's releases, watch them, put them in my iPod... that's about my relation with JUMP for some time now. I hope to get back into it after school but to be honest, the problem now is the fangirls. The usual people I talk to are not really with me anymore. So to get back into the circle is tough.
I have said some things people were not supposed to know, but I'm not gonna private this post because this is like an update of who I am as of this second, which is a self-loathing introvert who just wants a rest.
Sorry if this got you guys depressed hahah. All the best guys, see yall around.
/khyd
The last time I updated was probably just one sentence, talking about my last paper. Was that it? Well, it is my last paper tomorrow. HAHA. Last exam of my three years of study. I have to pass. It will be such a waste to retake a module at the last minute. Next semester would be internship.
I don't think anyone views livejournal anymore, so the chance of this post being read is really low. Still, just in case anyone was wondering how I was doing... here I am.
Summarizing my eight months, a lot has happened this year. January was just heartbreaking, February was a link to that story and broke my heart to so much more pieces. March was ok. April and May was both popular and heartbreaking. June was tiring emotionally and physically (it was fasting month). July was busy. August, this month, well, better I guess. All in all, it is heartbreaking everyday and I don't know who to trust.
Even my birthday was a whole day of not knowing what to do, how to react. I would love to tell the whole story just to get it out of my system but I'd rather not. I'd get angry, frustrated, sad, then get confused all over again. I lost people, I lost myself. Now, I'm just tryna pursue myself because I can't do shit about people. Even though it's within myself, it's not that easy. What happened in the first 3 months of the year was too much for me. I then made new friends and was starting to feel better but two of them kept hurting me because of each other (and myself, let's just be honest lol). Complicating shit. It is sort of over now but it just got settled so at least that's done. I'm still recovering from January-March drama.
I have also been too busy dealing with myself that I only have time to buy JUMP's releases, watch them, put them in my iPod... that's about my relation with JUMP for some time now. I hope to get back into it after school but to be honest, the problem now is the fangirls. The usual people I talk to are not really with me anymore. So to get back into the circle is tough.
I have said some things people were not supposed to know, but I'm not gonna private this post because this is like an update of who I am as of this second, which is a self-loathing introvert who just wants a rest.
Sorry if this got you guys depressed hahah. All the best guys, see yall around.
/khyd