wish list
welcome to my new world. yay! this is cool. starting over. i like it.
i'm making a late lunch. we're been eating sauteed mushrooms or tofu over brown rice with baked sweet potatoes every day for the past few days. we've been couch-surfing again. after my melodramatic entry of last tuesday night, fatamorgana invited us over to spend the night. fun times! i think i kept her and her fiance up though (sorry!) but we laughed and drank and spent time and it was good. i miss houston! i miss people who know me. then my friend t. offered her daughter's bedroom since she was visiting her grandmother till the weekend. then my mom called and was disappointed we were leaving so soon and convinced me to stay because i have business to take care of when everything's open again on monday. she swore she wasn't going to be evil so we drove to huntsville and spent a couple days, and things were... manageable if not good. with my family manageable is about all you can ever hope for. it was good though if for no other reason than i got to hang out with my 22-year-old wise-beyond-her-years cousin, which i've never done. we had a wonderful talk about our lives, one of those really long, deeply honest, heartfelt, letting go of years of pent-up frustration and anger at our families and various and sundry toxic friends and lovers who've walked across the stage of our lives talks and decided on a whim to go to the lesbian bar in houston because she'd never been to one before. i had four beers and one jello shot. she didn't drink at all. it was a low-key, good way to ring in the new year. then my evil sister i don't get along with AT ALL, the one who caused all the drama of that night, left yesterday morning for some job-training in oklahoma, and my other sister i do get along with invited me back over here because she and her husband went to a hotel for the weekend and the house was gonna be empty and she felt bad and guilty about what happened. so here i am!
i bought hair dye! i'm coloring my hair tomorrow! it's been almost exactly two years. i used to color it every new year's eve till i went back to black two years ago. now i'm going to be a blonde again.
my birthday's coming up, you know. on my wish list? a PAID account. this would make things like deciding where to move* easier. i could make polls and blame it on my lj friends if everything goes awry!
i lied. i did make a few resolutions. i resolved to drink more water and to eat out like twice a month. it's so easy and tempting to order a 7-layer burrito at taco hell because i'm too tired to cook and i miss the bounty of tex-mex/mexican food in texas, but soooo unhealthy. keeping it loose though. not gonna be hard on myself if i yield to temptation. just gonna try to do better. that's all any of us can do, isn't it?
(*my mind is pretty set on seattle, but pending a visit there spring break and more talks with freedom fighter's dad, i'm still weighing my options.)
i'm making a late lunch. we're been eating sauteed mushrooms or tofu over brown rice with baked sweet potatoes every day for the past few days. we've been couch-surfing again. after my melodramatic entry of last tuesday night, fatamorgana invited us over to spend the night. fun times! i think i kept her and her fiance up though (sorry!) but we laughed and drank and spent time and it was good. i miss houston! i miss people who know me. then my friend t. offered her daughter's bedroom since she was visiting her grandmother till the weekend. then my mom called and was disappointed we were leaving so soon and convinced me to stay because i have business to take care of when everything's open again on monday. she swore she wasn't going to be evil so we drove to huntsville and spent a couple days, and things were... manageable if not good. with my family manageable is about all you can ever hope for. it was good though if for no other reason than i got to hang out with my 22-year-old wise-beyond-her-years cousin, which i've never done. we had a wonderful talk about our lives, one of those really long, deeply honest, heartfelt, letting go of years of pent-up frustration and anger at our families and various and sundry toxic friends and lovers who've walked across the stage of our lives talks and decided on a whim to go to the lesbian bar in houston because she'd never been to one before. i had four beers and one jello shot. she didn't drink at all. it was a low-key, good way to ring in the new year. then my evil sister i don't get along with AT ALL, the one who caused all the drama of that night, left yesterday morning for some job-training in oklahoma, and my other sister i do get along with invited me back over here because she and her husband went to a hotel for the weekend and the house was gonna be empty and she felt bad and guilty about what happened. so here i am!
i bought hair dye! i'm coloring my hair tomorrow! it's been almost exactly two years. i used to color it every new year's eve till i went back to black two years ago. now i'm going to be a blonde again.
my birthday's coming up, you know. on my wish list? a PAID account. this would make things like deciding where to move* easier. i could make polls and blame it on my lj friends if everything goes awry!
i lied. i did make a few resolutions. i resolved to drink more water and to eat out like twice a month. it's so easy and tempting to order a 7-layer burrito at taco hell because i'm too tired to cook and i miss the bounty of tex-mex/mexican food in texas, but soooo unhealthy. keeping it loose though. not gonna be hard on myself if i yield to temptation. just gonna try to do better. that's all any of us can do, isn't it?
(*my mind is pretty set on seattle, but pending a visit there spring break and more talks with freedom fighter's dad, i'm still weighing my options.)