He still has the uncanny ability to make me cry...

Jan 12, 2003 20:52

Zachary says: sorry for being such an ass...
Amanda says: No, it's my fault...
Amanda says: The least I could've expected was that reaction.
Zachary says: well if you want to get technical.. it's both our faults really.
Amanda says: Yeah, well...
Zachary says: well?
Amanda says: Well nothing. It's both our faults.
Zachary says: yes.. that is what I said.
Amanda says: I know. I'm just restating the obvious, of course.
Zachary says: ah a philosopher eh?
Amanda says: Hardly. I'm dumb. I should learn to stop thinking so I can curb my stupidity.
Zachary says: ummm. no.
Zachary says: self defeating behavior is never the answer.
Zachary says: besides I didn't write you to make you feel bad.
Amanda says: You're not making me feel bad. It was a joke. ^^;;
Zachary says: funny. anyhow. when do you want your jade trinket?
Amanda says: You know I talk like that all the time...
Amanda says: I don't.
Zachary says: well too bad.
Zachary says: it seems wrong for me to have it.
Zachary says: I know my place.
Zachary says: Somone else deserves it.
Amanda says: It seems that way, but it's not. Keep it.
Amanda says: It's yours.
Zachary says: hehehe no it's not.
Zachary says: it's like Yoshi's or mark's or whatever.
Zachary says: sorry.
Amanda says: When do you want your pocket watch back?
Zachary says: hehehe no.. that's the irony.
Zachary says: you get to keep that little thing.
Zachary says: you see I never stopped... Even if the watch didn't tick anymore.. You still had it.
Zachary says: that's why I gave it to you.. you see the symbolism? I though very hard about it actually.
Zachary says: I gave it to you for a reason.. You see. I'm like the watch.. ( bare with me)
Zachary says: you can wind it, and it will still tick... Forget about it, and it won't. But it will always be there waiting for you to come back to it to wind, to put life back into it.
Zachary says: So I guess you can say it's a sort of allegory for our relationship.
Zachary says: so you can't give it back.. But you don't ever have to wind it again.
Amanda says: You still have this uncanny ability to make me cry whenever we chat, you know?
Zachary says: plus. in a pragmatic sense.
Zachary says: What am I gonna do with an old pocket watch?
Zachary says: yeah well.. I don't know why your crying.
Zachary says: in contrast.. your symbol.. I suppose you can say, was dead to begin with. Always appearing vibrant... But was still cold and inanimate.
Zachary says: that's what the dicerning eye can pick up on anyhow.
Zachary says: but that's ok..
Zachary says: no reason to cry.. Honestly. It's probably better this way.
Zachary says: I may have been worth crying over once.. but not now.. definitely not now.
Zachary says: So save your tears for someone else... I'll live either way.
Zachary says: and I still care about you.. So if you could... Just stop crying for my sake if not your own.

And it just went on from there... *sighs* It hurts in the bad way. Mattie, I need you but Stinkboy's on the 'net. >_< I'll try calling again, I suppose...

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~Myth
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