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so dylan is coming to town on saturday. i seriously cannot wait. i love that kid so much, and not just on the playground. he and i have been talking a lot lately and have connected like we were in the past. and knowing that were close like that again makes me so happy. he and i were probably the one relationship that i felt the closest to, besides ben (who i had dated for a year and i sure if dylan and i kept dating, wed be just as close). but seriously, when we went out in the 8th grade, i know it was just a jr. "fling" but we were actually pretty happy. i dont ever recall ever fighting with him, and i felt that i could tell him anything. we were best friends...and im so happy that were like that now.
so when he comes, were supposedly going to be hanging out like every other 2 days or so. and im so excited. that kid makes me laugh so hard, and just makes me feel like a kid again. i love him to death.
he and i joke about everything. we laugh like were 8 years old. i love that feeling.
and i fucking admire the fact that he is so driven to skateboarding. hes gotten so good since he was last here. in fact, i remember when he could barely do a 5 stair...now hes at like what, 12? not only do i think hes hot, but seeing him skateboard makes him 934573485934758 times hotter.
his lips are so damn hot, i love how theyre so full. i just want to kiss em. HAH! i wouldnt let go! man o man im so excited.
i remember the way that hes hair smelled in the mornings, lying next to him on the gym floor with the lights out...trying to be sneaky about kissing him. and the way that his kisses tasted, orbit blue minty flavored.
and his hair, dear lord his hair....its.so.hott.
it seems like just yesterday we were handing hands and cudling each other on the trampoline at 11:30 p.m. looking at the stars and wondering what tomorrow would be like.
so now i can relive all those old memories this summer. and i cannot wait to go for midnight drives, spending all day laying in the sun watching him skate at the skate park, going camping with the gang and partying, sleep overs and sneeking over to teeters house late at night.
i remember waayy beck in the day when we went out in the 5th grade. HAH! that was even before he skated. haha, running around on the playground every time i saw him, "phirana, phirana...its a PHIRANA!!" quoting the tarzan movie at him.
then in the sixth grade during our dare program he put viagra as a drug, and i had no idea what it was...god i had the biggest crush on him that year.
and then in 7th grade, i didnt see him that often, but i still though about him, and still had quite the crush on him.
when 8th grade came around,i "flirted" by giving him money evry so often..then in janurary, he asked me out...and we went out for 8 months.
we broke up in the summer bc we both ended up cheating on eachother...
then 9th grade came along, and i was too afraid to tell him that i still had such feelings for him. and that lasted all year. then i started dating ben beebe. (whom i had met by going out with dylan in the 8th grade)
finally 10th grade came along, and i was still dating ben...but sure enough we broke up. and i saw dylan in the hallways every so often, and towards the end of his branson year, i realiazed that i still liked him. but never told him.
so here i am now, still having mad thoughts about him 6 years later. i wonder if he feels the same?
only time will tell.
so when he comes, were supposedly going to be hanging out like every other 2 days or so. and im so excited. that kid makes me laugh so hard, and just makes me feel like a kid again. i love him to death.
he and i joke about everything. we laugh like were 8 years old. i love that feeling.
and i fucking admire the fact that he is so driven to skateboarding. hes gotten so good since he was last here. in fact, i remember when he could barely do a 5 stair...now hes at like what, 12? not only do i think hes hot, but seeing him skateboard makes him 934573485934758 times hotter.
his lips are so damn hot, i love how theyre so full. i just want to kiss em. HAH! i wouldnt let go! man o man im so excited.
i remember the way that hes hair smelled in the mornings, lying next to him on the gym floor with the lights out...trying to be sneaky about kissing him. and the way that his kisses tasted, orbit blue minty flavored.
and his hair, dear lord his hair....its.so.hott.
it seems like just yesterday we were handing hands and cudling each other on the trampoline at 11:30 p.m. looking at the stars and wondering what tomorrow would be like.
so now i can relive all those old memories this summer. and i cannot wait to go for midnight drives, spending all day laying in the sun watching him skate at the skate park, going camping with the gang and partying, sleep overs and sneeking over to teeters house late at night.
i remember waayy beck in the day when we went out in the 5th grade. HAH! that was even before he skated. haha, running around on the playground every time i saw him, "phirana, phirana...its a PHIRANA!!" quoting the tarzan movie at him.
then in the sixth grade during our dare program he put viagra as a drug, and i had no idea what it was...god i had the biggest crush on him that year.
and then in 7th grade, i didnt see him that often, but i still though about him, and still had quite the crush on him.
when 8th grade came around,i "flirted" by giving him money evry so often..then in janurary, he asked me out...and we went out for 8 months.
we broke up in the summer bc we both ended up cheating on eachother...
then 9th grade came along, and i was too afraid to tell him that i still had such feelings for him. and that lasted all year. then i started dating ben beebe. (whom i had met by going out with dylan in the 8th grade)
finally 10th grade came along, and i was still dating ben...but sure enough we broke up. and i saw dylan in the hallways every so often, and towards the end of his branson year, i realiazed that i still liked him. but never told him.
so here i am now, still having mad thoughts about him 6 years later. i wonder if he feels the same?
only time will tell.