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okay so maybe ive been a little too hard on this subject with trevor. hes sick, and i need to honor that and fulfill his needs way before mine. hes an unhappy person and its my duty in this world to make his like so much better. and im not helping much by complaining on how he never calls me.
he couldnt hang out yesterday because his blood sugar was in the 400s.he told me that (after i had made a big deal over him not being able to hang out with me by moping around the house and crap) and i felt like a total bitch. i cant believe myself. his life is way more important when he is sick and i need to understand that. why cant i get that through my stubborn little head that he needs time alone, and that he cant be there for me 24-7, i need to be there for HIM. im the one thats supposed to call him to make sure that hes feeling alright, im the one that supposed to go out of my way and drive to his house with his favorite movie and some popcorn and be there for him with whatever he wants. WHY CANT I UNDERSTAND THAT?!?!?!?
i try to be so sweet and so kind to him as much as i can. i love him so much and i cherish our relationship...but i just need to be there for him more than i already am.
he couldnt hang out yesterday because his blood sugar was in the 400s.he told me that (after i had made a big deal over him not being able to hang out with me by moping around the house and crap) and i felt like a total bitch. i cant believe myself. his life is way more important when he is sick and i need to understand that. why cant i get that through my stubborn little head that he needs time alone, and that he cant be there for me 24-7, i need to be there for HIM. im the one thats supposed to call him to make sure that hes feeling alright, im the one that supposed to go out of my way and drive to his house with his favorite movie and some popcorn and be there for him with whatever he wants. WHY CANT I UNDERSTAND THAT?!?!?!?
i try to be so sweet and so kind to him as much as i can. i love him so much and i cherish our relationship...but i just need to be there for him more than i already am.