just venting, dont mind me
like i said, just venting, don't mind this, i know you wont anyhow
how is it that you can make me feel so wonderful, alive, full of life, and at the same time you can crush me so completely.
this is unfair and i know it. you are in a place i couldn't imagine, your pain is paramount to anything i have ever known, but i am greedy, i feel like a dog waiting for you to maybe toss me your bone. and i hate that feeling.
i feel like i give you my all and i get so little in return. again i know its just right now, but i feel so hollow, so disappointed and so empty, you filled a void i needed filled, just to turn around and need me to do the same for you. but i don't know if i can give anymore, i am running on empty and i am coming up short. i want to give you my all, but i am still not healed from before, and i am so scared to hurt you because of what you are going through, i just miss that brief happiness we knew, where i was the center of your world, if only for a few days, you are still center to me.
well that is enough vague emotional emo type stuff.
on another note i am fairly sure i have arthritis.
how is it that you can make me feel so wonderful, alive, full of life, and at the same time you can crush me so completely.
this is unfair and i know it. you are in a place i couldn't imagine, your pain is paramount to anything i have ever known, but i am greedy, i feel like a dog waiting for you to maybe toss me your bone. and i hate that feeling.
i feel like i give you my all and i get so little in return. again i know its just right now, but i feel so hollow, so disappointed and so empty, you filled a void i needed filled, just to turn around and need me to do the same for you. but i don't know if i can give anymore, i am running on empty and i am coming up short. i want to give you my all, but i am still not healed from before, and i am so scared to hurt you because of what you are going through, i just miss that brief happiness we knew, where i was the center of your world, if only for a few days, you are still center to me.
well that is enough vague emotional emo type stuff.
on another note i am fairly sure i have arthritis.