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I feel like I am Penny Lane and he is Russell Hammond, just slightly less cool. But as the wise Lester Bangs says, "The only true currency in this bankrupt world... is what you share with someone else when you're uncool."
And what I share with him, while its wrong, its still something. I cried while watching one of my favorite movies ever, Almost Famous. I cried because I realized that I am so much like Penny, and while that should result in my jumping around like a giddy child, it makes me sad. It starts when Russell loses Penny to Humblepie in a bet. Penny and William are walking through the park and he is trying to subtley tell her that this needs to stop. She explains to him, "You don't know the things he says to me in private." William tells her the news, and she cries...it was then that I began to cry. Then there is this scene where they are all at dinner and Russell is with his girlfriend. Penny is standing across the room stunning as always and their eyes meet and you can feel the love, its there and its powerful, and when his girlfriend notices, Russells manager sends Penny away. William, sweet William finds Penny completely drugged out in her room, and shes crying. She asks William, "Why doesnt he love me?" I couldn't stop crying.
Last night he tried to hug me and kiss me. He told me that he missed me and I told him to stop and to leave me alone. I feel so weak when he's there, like saying no to him takes away all my energy. I slept most of today away. I tried exercising with a friend but all I could do was stand there and talk about him, and what I was going to do. I think I want to just go back to bed...
And what I share with him, while its wrong, its still something. I cried while watching one of my favorite movies ever, Almost Famous. I cried because I realized that I am so much like Penny, and while that should result in my jumping around like a giddy child, it makes me sad. It starts when Russell loses Penny to Humblepie in a bet. Penny and William are walking through the park and he is trying to subtley tell her that this needs to stop. She explains to him, "You don't know the things he says to me in private." William tells her the news, and she cries...it was then that I began to cry. Then there is this scene where they are all at dinner and Russell is with his girlfriend. Penny is standing across the room stunning as always and their eyes meet and you can feel the love, its there and its powerful, and when his girlfriend notices, Russells manager sends Penny away. William, sweet William finds Penny completely drugged out in her room, and shes crying. She asks William, "Why doesnt he love me?" I couldn't stop crying.
Last night he tried to hug me and kiss me. He told me that he missed me and I told him to stop and to leave me alone. I feel so weak when he's there, like saying no to him takes away all my energy. I slept most of today away. I tried exercising with a friend but all I could do was stand there and talk about him, and what I was going to do. I think I want to just go back to bed...