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Hi.
So I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm basically guessing that Becca and I are no longer an item, but really, I have no clue. Everything was going great for two weeks, but then she started avoiding me. We've seen each other once in the past almost two weeks.
Hell, every relationship I've tried to start in the past 7 or 8 months has been crap. One I thought was amazing, but she didn't like me. The second was the sister of the amazing one which wasn't a good idea from the start, turned out I didn't really think she was as amazing as her sister. The third, and current, I didn't think would work at all, yet once it started was awesome. Then of course, she started avoiding me. Goddamnit.
What the hell am I getting myself into with these girls? Each day I'm losing more and more of how I used to view relationships and gaining every other males opinion and I hate it.
I know I shouldn't put this where she can see it, but I don't really care anymore. I miss her like hell. I miss everything about her and I damn myself for fucking things over. I've changed a hell of a lot and things probably wouldn't work out now, but I really do kick myself in the pants every time I think about it.
I've had the Decemberists cd I made in my car for almost a month straight and each time I listen to it I like it more and more. They may be becoming my favorite band. My dad even likes them (he drives my car every now and again and thus has become exposed to them).
I was in a Salinger mood today so I picked Nine Stories up again and read A Perfect Day for Bananafish. What a great story. I still have to read Franny and Zooey (sp on Zoe?), but before I get to work on that I've got all those damn AP books to work through. Oh well, I'll be done with them soon enough.
Tomorrow my old old friend Jeff comes into town. He moved to Alabama a loooong time ago and is coming back for a couple days. It will be awesome. I get the priviledge of being the one to pick him up and drive him around for the day which means I'll need to clean my car out a bit. It's getting to be as bad as my room, if not worse, in there.
Anyway, like the last time, leave more comments! I miss talking to you guys. And IM me, even if it doesn't look like I'm there, I am.
P.S. It's July. Quite possibly my favorite month. What's going on this month? Jeff home. Dave's parents gone for a week (aka a week of partying). Birthday. Leadership Lab.
And perhaps with things looking up I might just be able to find what I've been looking for.
So I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm basically guessing that Becca and I are no longer an item, but really, I have no clue. Everything was going great for two weeks, but then she started avoiding me. We've seen each other once in the past almost two weeks.
Hell, every relationship I've tried to start in the past 7 or 8 months has been crap. One I thought was amazing, but she didn't like me. The second was the sister of the amazing one which wasn't a good idea from the start, turned out I didn't really think she was as amazing as her sister. The third, and current, I didn't think would work at all, yet once it started was awesome. Then of course, she started avoiding me. Goddamnit.
What the hell am I getting myself into with these girls? Each day I'm losing more and more of how I used to view relationships and gaining every other males opinion and I hate it.
I know I shouldn't put this where she can see it, but I don't really care anymore. I miss her like hell. I miss everything about her and I damn myself for fucking things over. I've changed a hell of a lot and things probably wouldn't work out now, but I really do kick myself in the pants every time I think about it.
I've had the Decemberists cd I made in my car for almost a month straight and each time I listen to it I like it more and more. They may be becoming my favorite band. My dad even likes them (he drives my car every now and again and thus has become exposed to them).
I was in a Salinger mood today so I picked Nine Stories up again and read A Perfect Day for Bananafish. What a great story. I still have to read Franny and Zooey (sp on Zoe?), but before I get to work on that I've got all those damn AP books to work through. Oh well, I'll be done with them soon enough.
Tomorrow my old old friend Jeff comes into town. He moved to Alabama a loooong time ago and is coming back for a couple days. It will be awesome. I get the priviledge of being the one to pick him up and drive him around for the day which means I'll need to clean my car out a bit. It's getting to be as bad as my room, if not worse, in there.
Anyway, like the last time, leave more comments! I miss talking to you guys. And IM me, even if it doesn't look like I'm there, I am.
P.S. It's July. Quite possibly my favorite month. What's going on this month? Jeff home. Dave's parents gone for a week (aka a week of partying). Birthday. Leadership Lab.
And perhaps with things looking up I might just be able to find what I've been looking for.