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Myspace is a douche which is why I have decided to come back to my trusty LJ. Well, not really. It's really the fact that too many opinionated people read things over there and feel they have the right to tell me what to do and think that it's their way or no way at all. Well, eff them.
Anyway. I stupid. Let's start with that. I just... am. I am falling back in love with my douchy ex boyfriend. Well, he is the father of my baby and we were together for 4 freaking years. I mean, maybe I never fell out of love with him? I don't know. HE had no trouble moving on, right? I could sit here and make excuses about how he didn't want to be alone and how he really loved me the whole time and blah, blah, but I'm not going to. At all. He was just dumb and mean, but now, he's back.
The girlfriend is gone. For good. Well, I think for good anyway and now we are talking about getting back together. He's weird because he is being so honest with me about everything that he is doing and instead of getting mad at me when he hears things he comes to me and asks me about them before getting mad and I'm just like... wow. He pretty much has a bad temper and likes to fight, but things have been different, which makes me miss him. Well, it makes me miss the HIM that I was dating before the bad temper and fights. This is pre-weed using Roger.
Anyway, he told me that he still has feelings for me and that he still cares about me and misses me, but he wants to make sure that things are genuine before he jumps into something again and ends up hurting both of us. The other day, he said that he was confused and I was like, "Roger, don't lead me to believe that we are getting back together or talking about getting back together if that isn't really what's going on." and he replied that I wasn't what he was confused about at all, so really, I don't get it.
Maybe I am being naive and stupid. I just don't want to be hurt again. I really, really, care about him and I guess that I always will. I don't know. Boo life.
Anyway. I stupid. Let's start with that. I just... am. I am falling back in love with my douchy ex boyfriend. Well, he is the father of my baby and we were together for 4 freaking years. I mean, maybe I never fell out of love with him? I don't know. HE had no trouble moving on, right? I could sit here and make excuses about how he didn't want to be alone and how he really loved me the whole time and blah, blah, but I'm not going to. At all. He was just dumb and mean, but now, he's back.
The girlfriend is gone. For good. Well, I think for good anyway and now we are talking about getting back together. He's weird because he is being so honest with me about everything that he is doing and instead of getting mad at me when he hears things he comes to me and asks me about them before getting mad and I'm just like... wow. He pretty much has a bad temper and likes to fight, but things have been different, which makes me miss him. Well, it makes me miss the HIM that I was dating before the bad temper and fights. This is pre-weed using Roger.
Anyway, he told me that he still has feelings for me and that he still cares about me and misses me, but he wants to make sure that things are genuine before he jumps into something again and ends up hurting both of us. The other day, he said that he was confused and I was like, "Roger, don't lead me to believe that we are getting back together or talking about getting back together if that isn't really what's going on." and he replied that I wasn't what he was confused about at all, so really, I don't get it.
Maybe I am being naive and stupid. I just don't want to be hurt again. I really, really, care about him and I guess that I always will. I don't know. Boo life.