she changes your mind.
forgive me now. this is long.
so heres a picture of my gf hd.
sicki stayed home from work yesterday and today. i have been sick. with what i dont know. my body feels weak. my head feels like its going to explode. not headache explode, but literally explode. my joints hurt. my throat hurts. everything hurts. but the pain is receding and i will be back to work tomorrow. my boss failed to mention that i had medical insurance through the company untill after i felt good enough to go back. now i cant go see a doctor cuz i'll be working again. damn.
caitlin/drugscaitlin has been the sweetest to me. on tuesday she brought me some homemade chicken noodle soup, hot cocoa, and some other food. dang. so sweet. then at night, despite my illness, we went and saw oceans 12. pretty good movie. not as good as the first but definately worth seeing. its been hard for me to sleep at night. thats all i want to do and i cant. im either in pain or doped up. most of the time im doped up. ive been living off of ibuprofen. it was to the point that i could actually feel the medicine wearing off and i had to take more or i would feel like crap. yikes. so tomorrow at work, hopefully i'll naturally feel better, or i'll have to go drugged up. which is not the safest thing when you operate heavy/dangerous equipment. but i need money.
liz/workin response to liz's lj about working and stuff. man i know how it is. last year was my first year on my own. and i mean on my own. nobody supported me but myself. i had to pay for everything. and i had to work my ass off just to be barely over broke. work consumed me. it was all i did. id come home and eat a sandwich and just want to go to bed. i would be physically tired and i felt like noone understood that. everyone else was in school and got support from their families. they wondered how i could sleep in till 3 on the weekends. it was harsh. but at the same time a good lesson. it prepared me for this year. im still broke all the time, but im not killing myself over it. so, anyways, im just saying i feel you.
ess deei think this may be my last year in sd. the only reason i came here was for the band and we havent done anything. its cool living with my friends and i would have had to move out soon enough anyways, but sd will never be my home. i love tracy despite what all you haters say about it. i miss the country and i miss the lack of traffic. i miss my family. san diego is overpopulated and too big for me. you cant go anywhere and be alone. no matter what time you go out or to what place, someone else already had the same idea and beat you there. people drive alot slower/more retarded here. the people here dont know what rain is or cold weather and the 2 days a year we actually get it, people start crashing into eachother and making the commute home for guys like me take 2 hours. and another thing....haha.... you can never find a 7 11 with a slurpee machine that isnt all melted or out of order. wtf? whats up with that? haha. sorry for the rant. if youve been around me youve probably heard me go off on sd in person.
musicone good thing down here, besides the ocean, is the music. you could literally go to a show every night if you wanted to. it would be expensive but its possible. on weekends there are usually at least 6 shows going on each night. dont believe me? check out sandiegopunk.com and go to the shows page bitch! haha. its cool and some good bands come through. anyways, its also a good place for musicians to get exposed and to get known. so if i were to pursue a career or touring opportunity with a band like i want to, id do it here. so im torn. if i move back to tracy, it is alot harder to get shows and find bands and what not. sf is cool but its still an hour away. dang. i dont know man. i got alot of friends down here already and some that want to move down. but i also have alot up north and alot of family. the great debate.
slayer/showsso slayer is playing tomorrow night if you guys wanted to know. jk but id go see them if it was free. i remember when i was like 12 years old in 6th grade or whatever, i won tickets off the radio to go see slayer. haha. of course i couldnt go but it was tight. i thought i still had the tickets but i probably threw them away when i moved. dang. i just thought it was funny.
heres some of the bands that ive got to see down here.
thursday
thrice
coheed and cambria
dashboard confessional
deathcab for cutie
franz ferdinand
muse
counterfit
hot hot heat
story of the year
the used
yellowcard
mae
further seems forever
mewithoutyou
anberlin
brand new
normajean
the velvet teen
recover
copeland
numberonegun
numberonefan
armor for sleep
emery
acceptance
watashiwa
french kicks
ive seen alot of bands. its awesome. i DO love that. i would have never gotten to see half of those bands in tracy. but damn, the thought of mr. brand new touching youuuuu! jk thn reference.
so i heckof like that rilo kiley song portions for foxes. its my put my shoes on music. haha nm. ive been listening to this bombass playlist i made lately. amazing. and ive been falling asleep to the simpsons. life is weird. this entry is long, and it can only get longer.
$$paid$$/christmasi technically got paid today although i wasnt there to get my check. so that means its time for some christmas shopping. as if i didnt hate malls enough on their own, im gonna have to go to a mall, in san diego, in the middle of christmas rush. eek. it will be ok though. hopefully i can actually get people stuff this year as far as money goes. what do you people want this year?
i want....
socks, seriously
bmw 330ci
ipod
canned food
jackets. i love jackets.
music
whatever
i hope i will be able to spend goodtime with mi familia.
now its almost midnight. im going to attempt to fall asleep and be rested for my return to work tomorrow. i will probably bust out my simpsons dvd again. whatever works man. congrats on making it through.
gonna hit up some pills and float away now. wish me luck.
xoxo.
so heres a picture of my gf hd.
sicki stayed home from work yesterday and today. i have been sick. with what i dont know. my body feels weak. my head feels like its going to explode. not headache explode, but literally explode. my joints hurt. my throat hurts. everything hurts. but the pain is receding and i will be back to work tomorrow. my boss failed to mention that i had medical insurance through the company untill after i felt good enough to go back. now i cant go see a doctor cuz i'll be working again. damn.
caitlin/drugscaitlin has been the sweetest to me. on tuesday she brought me some homemade chicken noodle soup, hot cocoa, and some other food. dang. so sweet. then at night, despite my illness, we went and saw oceans 12. pretty good movie. not as good as the first but definately worth seeing. its been hard for me to sleep at night. thats all i want to do and i cant. im either in pain or doped up. most of the time im doped up. ive been living off of ibuprofen. it was to the point that i could actually feel the medicine wearing off and i had to take more or i would feel like crap. yikes. so tomorrow at work, hopefully i'll naturally feel better, or i'll have to go drugged up. which is not the safest thing when you operate heavy/dangerous equipment. but i need money.
liz/workin response to liz's lj about working and stuff. man i know how it is. last year was my first year on my own. and i mean on my own. nobody supported me but myself. i had to pay for everything. and i had to work my ass off just to be barely over broke. work consumed me. it was all i did. id come home and eat a sandwich and just want to go to bed. i would be physically tired and i felt like noone understood that. everyone else was in school and got support from their families. they wondered how i could sleep in till 3 on the weekends. it was harsh. but at the same time a good lesson. it prepared me for this year. im still broke all the time, but im not killing myself over it. so, anyways, im just saying i feel you.
ess deei think this may be my last year in sd. the only reason i came here was for the band and we havent done anything. its cool living with my friends and i would have had to move out soon enough anyways, but sd will never be my home. i love tracy despite what all you haters say about it. i miss the country and i miss the lack of traffic. i miss my family. san diego is overpopulated and too big for me. you cant go anywhere and be alone. no matter what time you go out or to what place, someone else already had the same idea and beat you there. people drive alot slower/more retarded here. the people here dont know what rain is or cold weather and the 2 days a year we actually get it, people start crashing into eachother and making the commute home for guys like me take 2 hours. and another thing....haha.... you can never find a 7 11 with a slurpee machine that isnt all melted or out of order. wtf? whats up with that? haha. sorry for the rant. if youve been around me youve probably heard me go off on sd in person.
musicone good thing down here, besides the ocean, is the music. you could literally go to a show every night if you wanted to. it would be expensive but its possible. on weekends there are usually at least 6 shows going on each night. dont believe me? check out sandiegopunk.com and go to the shows page bitch! haha. its cool and some good bands come through. anyways, its also a good place for musicians to get exposed and to get known. so if i were to pursue a career or touring opportunity with a band like i want to, id do it here. so im torn. if i move back to tracy, it is alot harder to get shows and find bands and what not. sf is cool but its still an hour away. dang. i dont know man. i got alot of friends down here already and some that want to move down. but i also have alot up north and alot of family. the great debate.
slayer/showsso slayer is playing tomorrow night if you guys wanted to know. jk but id go see them if it was free. i remember when i was like 12 years old in 6th grade or whatever, i won tickets off the radio to go see slayer. haha. of course i couldnt go but it was tight. i thought i still had the tickets but i probably threw them away when i moved. dang. i just thought it was funny.
heres some of the bands that ive got to see down here.
thursday
thrice
coheed and cambria
dashboard confessional
deathcab for cutie
franz ferdinand
muse
counterfit
hot hot heat
story of the year
the used
yellowcard
mae
further seems forever
mewithoutyou
anberlin
brand new
normajean
the velvet teen
recover
copeland
numberonegun
numberonefan
armor for sleep
emery
acceptance
watashiwa
french kicks
ive seen alot of bands. its awesome. i DO love that. i would have never gotten to see half of those bands in tracy. but damn, the thought of mr. brand new touching youuuuu! jk thn reference.
so i heckof like that rilo kiley song portions for foxes. its my put my shoes on music. haha nm. ive been listening to this bombass playlist i made lately. amazing. and ive been falling asleep to the simpsons. life is weird. this entry is long, and it can only get longer.
$$paid$$/christmasi technically got paid today although i wasnt there to get my check. so that means its time for some christmas shopping. as if i didnt hate malls enough on their own, im gonna have to go to a mall, in san diego, in the middle of christmas rush. eek. it will be ok though. hopefully i can actually get people stuff this year as far as money goes. what do you people want this year?
i want....
socks, seriously
bmw 330ci
ipod
canned food
jackets. i love jackets.
music
whatever
i hope i will be able to spend goodtime with mi familia.
now its almost midnight. im going to attempt to fall asleep and be rested for my return to work tomorrow. i will probably bust out my simpsons dvd again. whatever works man. congrats on making it through.
gonna hit up some pills and float away now. wish me luck.
xoxo.