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Well its been 2 years now since I have updated..
Just feels like a good time right now.
I feel like i am being left behind again in life.
Friends are all getting married, or having babies..
Me? ..
The only thing new with me is having made the decision to go for Gastric Bypass surgery.
Don't know when, but it will happen soon. im hoping to get a surgeon appointment within the next couple of weeks.
Had a rough night last night.. was up until 3am. woke up at 6:30.
cried most of the night..
Why do i let myself start to like people, when I know they don't feel the same for me.
I think its time to go back to where I feel safe.
back to numbness where I don't feel anything. That way i can't get hurt anymore.
Deliver me into my fate.
If i'm alone i cannot hate.