JON

[mysuperpowers]

i hate you for lying to me
and u hate you for never being there
and i hate you for not attempting to understand
and not careing
and giving up
and i hate you because you can't just accept somethings in life
and i hate you for never trying
and i hate you for never telling me what you really mean
and i hate you
and i hate you
and i hate you
and i have for a really long time now
but i convinced myself i didn't
and the first time i told you i loved you
i didn't really mean it
not the second
nor the third
and the first time i really did mean it
was just a second ago
but now it's gone
and you never really wanted to kiss me
but that was the only thing i liked about you
and i let you touch me
even though i hate to be touched
and i went out of my way to write this to you
when you shouldn't matter anymore
and even when i knew i hated you
you were so gentle
and you loved me
but it was never really ever there
and you never wanted more

...i wrote that a long time ago. i have a lot of pent up anger.