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Im sooo irritated right now. There's this sinking feeling in my stomach that doesn't seem to want to go away. It's like a hunger pain. But more than that. It reaches into my heart and wraps it's horrid fingers around and squeezes. It releases the grip every once in a while and happy thoughts are allowed to creep back into my head. Not often enough. I was happy. I was alive. Now I feel like Im sinking back again into someplace unwated and darker than before. I can't find the light that used to flicker around the edges. Im sure it will be back soon. I just really don't want to wait.