~*~He'll never know what's behind these Hazel eyes~*~
So, in the first two weeks of school I have dealth with more drama and emotion than I have my ENTIRE scholar career! I have been so depressed that I don't want to eat but I've been so happy that I can't concentrate, it's exhausting being an actual girl. I've alway avoided these situations because I was afraid and sitting in the cafeteria today I realized that as much as it may hurt right now I will get over it and there will be another. I can't hide or put up a wall from this type of drama all my life or I won't know how to deal with it. I just need to stop looking at him and thinking what we had, becuase when I do that I feel something that I had never fealt before, It helps me to know that I'm alive and able to feel but it makes my heart sink and I just want to turn away. But Jackie W and I decided that we're both going to go to the Homecoming and be absolutley GORGEOUS!
I also heard that the last entry in my journal hurt someone's feelings and it was never intended to be for that purpose. I liked who I liked because he was different and that was the only purpose of my entry. I write in this journal not to please other people but to relax and share what I choose to share with others and I'm not going to censor my journal for the sake of someone who might not even read it. I don't know, things are so complicated and senior year is kinda sucky so far for me, hopefully it will get better, I just keep telling myself that, it will get better ? won't it ? You know who you are .... yes you.... leave me some love .