explosions in the sky
i'm content. maybe beyond content. i think i'm happy.
i'm letting go. i'm finally making a conscious effort to let go. of everything. jealousy. dependence. obsessiveness. selfishness. anger. self pity.
and its making me happy. i even took my keychain off. thats significant.
i made/became closer to new friends this weekend and it was amazing. not always thinking of you. waiting for a call. HAVING to hang out. i'm gonna become myself again. or something that resembles what i think myself is. there's definitely gonna be changes. and being just friends isn't nearly as hard as i thought it would be. in fact its easier. for now at least.
i think we can choose so many things. emotions and all that do play such a significant role. but. time helps too. and realization of things. its hard to choose when its not what you want at all. but when you see its most likely for the best...its a whole lot easier. its not about getting what you want... but being content with what you have and the knowledge that there are so many good things to come.
that part was more of a reminder to myself. haha not a preachy thing.
ach! class again! more to come later maybe
i'm letting go. i'm finally making a conscious effort to let go. of everything. jealousy. dependence. obsessiveness. selfishness. anger. self pity.
and its making me happy. i even took my keychain off. thats significant.
i made/became closer to new friends this weekend and it was amazing. not always thinking of you. waiting for a call. HAVING to hang out. i'm gonna become myself again. or something that resembles what i think myself is. there's definitely gonna be changes. and being just friends isn't nearly as hard as i thought it would be. in fact its easier. for now at least.
i think we can choose so many things. emotions and all that do play such a significant role. but. time helps too. and realization of things. its hard to choose when its not what you want at all. but when you see its most likely for the best...its a whole lot easier. its not about getting what you want... but being content with what you have and the knowledge that there are so many good things to come.
that part was more of a reminder to myself. haha not a preachy thing.
ach! class again! more to come later maybe