I just found this from the beginning of senior year...
Somewhere b e t w e e n the proscrastination and the homework...
and the incessant forwards...and jobs... and the friendships... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!... Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends... And the "I miss you's," the "I love you's"... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"... and somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes... And the skipping classes...And the studying for tests...And the pretending to study for tests... I forgot.... I forgot what life is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy...... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.......... I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.......... I forgot that you can't control falling in love......... And that you can't make yourself fall in love.......I learned that I can love.......... I learned that it's OKAY to mess up........ And that it's OKAY to ask for help...... And it's OKAY to feel like crap......... I learned it's OKAY to complain and whine to all my friends for the whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest things in life are not the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups.... It's the friendships, which means taking chances..... I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things we most need to talk about......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends...... Both o l d and new........... Are the most important people to me in the world. And....... without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.....
So this is a thank you to all of my friends:
For always being there.
And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch.....
I still care for you.
And its true today too. <3