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So I posted relatively new pictures on my myspace with a picture of Mike so you guys can see what he looks like and have a face in mind whenever you read about him.
So I figured I would put this in here because it's pretty much important.
So I love him.
BEFORE YOU FREAK OUT AND LEAVE A COMMENT DISCUSSING HOW STUPID I AM...please consider the following:
So I had been feeling this way for awhile and I had been saying , "Te amo" (Spanish for I love you) to him, but he doesn't speak Spanish, so he doesn't know what that means. And he would ask me what it meant and I was like, "I don't want to freak you out because even though it's not too early for me to say it, I think it might be too much for you to take right now." So I think that saying that pretty much gave it awayk, but he never really pushed for me to tell him.
So one night we were laying in my bed and he was holding me and I said, "Te amo." And he was like..."Why don't you say it in English?" And I was like, "I just don't think you're ready" and he was quiet for a few minutes and then he said, "Are you falling for me?" and I said without hesitation, "Yes" and he was quiet for a long time...and he said, "just tell me." And I took FOREVER and eventually was like, "I love you." And he sighed and was like, "Oh God. What have I done..." And I was totally suprised...like that was NOT the reaction I was expecting. I was like, "What?" And he said, "What have I done to you?" I was so confused...I was like...this is a horrible thing? I didn't really think it was that bad...my God. But then he was like, "I just....I don't feel the same way...Like I'm not at that point yet." And I was like, "Wait wait hold on. I don't LOVE love you. I mean, I do, but I mean like I'm not in love with you. I love everything about you. I love the way you look at me, the way you do everything, the way you touch me, the way you talk, the way you just...I love everything. So it's not really a deep in love I love you, it's more like a surface I love you. I feel like I can say I love you in that way, but no, I'm not in love with you right now." I guess I'm in love with him in a way that I am FALLING in love with him everyday...but I'm not there yet. It's the beautiful part. I'm falling-my feet haven't hit the ground quite yet. *wink* So he was like, "Well in that case I love you too."
YAY...so for once I'm absolutely on the same page as someone else...good.
So we love each other. In that good...surface...safe-ish way.
I love you guys too-but in a much deeper way *smile*
So I figured I would put this in here because it's pretty much important.
So I love him.
BEFORE YOU FREAK OUT AND LEAVE A COMMENT DISCUSSING HOW STUPID I AM...please consider the following:
So I had been feeling this way for awhile and I had been saying , "Te amo" (Spanish for I love you) to him, but he doesn't speak Spanish, so he doesn't know what that means. And he would ask me what it meant and I was like, "I don't want to freak you out because even though it's not too early for me to say it, I think it might be too much for you to take right now." So I think that saying that pretty much gave it awayk, but he never really pushed for me to tell him.
So one night we were laying in my bed and he was holding me and I said, "Te amo." And he was like..."Why don't you say it in English?" And I was like, "I just don't think you're ready" and he was quiet for a few minutes and then he said, "Are you falling for me?" and I said without hesitation, "Yes" and he was quiet for a long time...and he said, "just tell me." And I took FOREVER and eventually was like, "I love you." And he sighed and was like, "Oh God. What have I done..." And I was totally suprised...like that was NOT the reaction I was expecting. I was like, "What?" And he said, "What have I done to you?" I was so confused...I was like...this is a horrible thing? I didn't really think it was that bad...my God. But then he was like, "I just....I don't feel the same way...Like I'm not at that point yet." And I was like, "Wait wait hold on. I don't LOVE love you. I mean, I do, but I mean like I'm not in love with you. I love everything about you. I love the way you look at me, the way you do everything, the way you touch me, the way you talk, the way you just...I love everything. So it's not really a deep in love I love you, it's more like a surface I love you. I feel like I can say I love you in that way, but no, I'm not in love with you right now." I guess I'm in love with him in a way that I am FALLING in love with him everyday...but I'm not there yet. It's the beautiful part. I'm falling-my feet haven't hit the ground quite yet. *wink* So he was like, "Well in that case I love you too."
YAY...so for once I'm absolutely on the same page as someone else...good.
So we love each other. In that good...surface...safe-ish way.
I love you guys too-but in a much deeper way *smile*