About Me-type thing..
Finish the sentence:
I see: my computer. duh. :)
I need: affection, companionship, reassurement
I find: hope everywhere I look
I want: unconditional, reciprocated love
I have: many things, many wishes, many hopes, many dreams
I wish: there were more honest, kind people; that there were not so much pain in the world.
I love: my family, my puppy, my friends (few though they are), the kids I work with; my stuffed animals, books, poetry, fantasy, dreaming, cold days, rainy days, the rare & pure moments in life, making connections with others, talking, shopping, etc etc...
I hate: ignorant people, shallow/fake people, intolerance, hatred, liars & cheats, being used, being rejected, pain, feeling alone, being rushed, losing people I care about, needles/shots, that life is so short, my bad memory, etc..
I miss: the innocence of youth, having friends, feeling loved, falling asleep in someone's arms, my family, the friends I've lost along the way, being good at something, the smell & feel of home, being able to wake up and play all day
I fear: rejection, loss
I feel: lost, lonely, hopeful, confused
I hear: my air conditioner, the thoughts running through my head
I smell: ? my nose is too cold to smell...
I crave: love, closeness, security, belonging, being around others, ice cream, grapefruit juice, peanut butter. lol.
I search: for others like me; for good honest people; for others to connect with; for a purpose to my life
I wonder: why I have few friends, where my life is headed, if I'll ever attain my dreams, when I'll get off this computer & be productive. . .
I regret: not making more of the time I had w/ those I've lost, having lost them, not being able to overcome my shyness, that it is past noon & I'm still waking up (j/k- it's rather nice), that I find it so hard to call those I care about. . .
When was the last time you...
Smiled?: last night
Laughed?: umm... yesterday? the day before maybe?
Cried?: last night
Bought something? I've bought stuff all week to organize my house... ; for my personal enjoyment? umm... this past week also- seat & steering wheel cover(s) for my car. :)
Danced?: the other day while cleaning. hehe.
Were sarcastic?: yesterday
Kissed someone?: last night
Talked to an ex?: yesterday (online); in real life? a month ago maybe?
Watched your favorite movie?: I have many favorites... probably over 6 mos-a year though :(
Had a nightmare?: last night
A Last time for everything...
Last book you read: and completed? Kushiel's Chosen (2nd in series) or 3rd Harry Potter-- quite a few months ago. . . read in general? currently reading Kushiel's Avatar (3rd) and pieces of many other books...
Last movie you saw: Stepford Wives (old version).. sooo freaky... ahh!
Last song you heard: a dashboard confessional song (can't remember which one- driving home late last night)..
Last thing you had to drink: grapefruit juice! mmm!
Last time you showered: uhh. yesterday morning... I'm about to tho...
Last thing you ate: 2 pieces of reheated pizza in a hurry last night.
Do You...
Smoke?: never
Do drugs?: never
Have sex?: yes, yes I do.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes, unless I think the puppy will steal them. ;)
Live in the moment?: sometimes...
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no :( *sniffle*
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: not at the current time, but in general yes...
Play an instrument?: not anymore :(
Believe there is life on other planets?: yeah sure
Remember your first love?: of course!
Still love him/her?: love never dies.. (changes form yes, but never dies)...
Read the newspaper?: when I get a chance..
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes
Believe in miracles?: I'd like to...
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
Consider love a mistake?: no!
Like the taste of alcohol?: not so much..
Have a favorite candy?: yes. many. snickers, payday, m&m (peanut)...
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: yes
Believe in God?: I'm still unsure... I think I believe in some higher power...
Pray?: very rarely
Go to church?: no
Have any secrets?: who doesn't?
Have any pets: YES! my puppy is my "daughter"; I also have a rabbit & a rat
Do well in school?: I try to. I think I do ok. I use to do well always..
Go to or plan to go to college?: yes, I'm in college.
Have a major?: yep- psychology
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: yep
Wear hats?: not really.
Have any piercings?: ears (2 in each). too chicken shit to get any more. lol.
Have any tattoos?: no.. see above for reason..
Hate yourself?: quite frequently, but only on some levels.
Have an obsession?: I've been known to go through them (titanic, astrology were big past obsessions)... right now? not so much.. probably ice cream. hehe. j/k. internet probably..
Have a secret crush?: why should I tell you? ;) hehe. yes I do. :)
Do they know yet?: hmm.. I don't have the slightest..
Collect anything?: yeah. Sobe bottle caps, stickers, love letters
Have a best friend?: I use to... not really anymore though :(
Wish on stars?: yes. *sigh*
Like your handwriting?: eh. it's ok. use to be worse. could be better.
Have any bad habits?: yeah. beating up on myself (low self esteem); being online all the time; procrastination!; many more, I'm sure!
Care about looks?: in others? nope. i like people for who they are inside! :); for me? yes. others are too shallow and judge based on looks more, so I am always worried about my own. .. it is the basis of how most others see me. :(
Believe in witches? hmm.. I use to? . . I believe they use to exist...
Believe in Satan?: hmm. I'm not sure. there probably is a Hell.. but I dont know about Satan any more than God. . .
Believe in ghosts?: yes.
Believe this is finally over? No! OMG!! Yay!! Wheeeee. It IS a miracle (forgot what I put for that one...). lol.
I see: my computer. duh. :)
I need: affection, companionship, reassurement
I find: hope everywhere I look
I want: unconditional, reciprocated love
I have: many things, many wishes, many hopes, many dreams
I wish: there were more honest, kind people; that there were not so much pain in the world.
I love: my family, my puppy, my friends (few though they are), the kids I work with; my stuffed animals, books, poetry, fantasy, dreaming, cold days, rainy days, the rare & pure moments in life, making connections with others, talking, shopping, etc etc...
I hate: ignorant people, shallow/fake people, intolerance, hatred, liars & cheats, being used, being rejected, pain, feeling alone, being rushed, losing people I care about, needles/shots, that life is so short, my bad memory, etc..
I miss: the innocence of youth, having friends, feeling loved, falling asleep in someone's arms, my family, the friends I've lost along the way, being good at something, the smell & feel of home, being able to wake up and play all day
I fear: rejection, loss
I feel: lost, lonely, hopeful, confused
I hear: my air conditioner, the thoughts running through my head
I smell: ? my nose is too cold to smell...
I crave: love, closeness, security, belonging, being around others, ice cream, grapefruit juice, peanut butter. lol.
I search: for others like me; for good honest people; for others to connect with; for a purpose to my life
I wonder: why I have few friends, where my life is headed, if I'll ever attain my dreams, when I'll get off this computer & be productive. . .
I regret: not making more of the time I had w/ those I've lost, having lost them, not being able to overcome my shyness, that it is past noon & I'm still waking up (j/k- it's rather nice), that I find it so hard to call those I care about. . .
When was the last time you...
Smiled?: last night
Laughed?: umm... yesterday? the day before maybe?
Cried?: last night
Bought something? I've bought stuff all week to organize my house... ; for my personal enjoyment? umm... this past week also- seat & steering wheel cover(s) for my car. :)
Danced?: the other day while cleaning. hehe.
Were sarcastic?: yesterday
Kissed someone?: last night
Talked to an ex?: yesterday (online); in real life? a month ago maybe?
Watched your favorite movie?: I have many favorites... probably over 6 mos-a year though :(
Had a nightmare?: last night
A Last time for everything...
Last book you read: and completed? Kushiel's Chosen (2nd in series) or 3rd Harry Potter-- quite a few months ago. . . read in general? currently reading Kushiel's Avatar (3rd) and pieces of many other books...
Last movie you saw: Stepford Wives (old version).. sooo freaky... ahh!
Last song you heard: a dashboard confessional song (can't remember which one- driving home late last night)..
Last thing you had to drink: grapefruit juice! mmm!
Last time you showered: uhh. yesterday morning... I'm about to tho...
Last thing you ate: 2 pieces of reheated pizza in a hurry last night.
Do You...
Smoke?: never
Do drugs?: never
Have sex?: yes, yes I do.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes, unless I think the puppy will steal them. ;)
Live in the moment?: sometimes...
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no :( *sniffle*
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: not at the current time, but in general yes...
Play an instrument?: not anymore :(
Believe there is life on other planets?: yeah sure
Remember your first love?: of course!
Still love him/her?: love never dies.. (changes form yes, but never dies)...
Read the newspaper?: when I get a chance..
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes
Believe in miracles?: I'd like to...
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes
Consider love a mistake?: no!
Like the taste of alcohol?: not so much..
Have a favorite candy?: yes. many. snickers, payday, m&m (peanut)...
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: yes
Believe in God?: I'm still unsure... I think I believe in some higher power...
Pray?: very rarely
Go to church?: no
Have any secrets?: who doesn't?
Have any pets: YES! my puppy is my "daughter"; I also have a rabbit & a rat
Do well in school?: I try to. I think I do ok. I use to do well always..
Go to or plan to go to college?: yes, I'm in college.
Have a major?: yep- psychology
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: yep
Wear hats?: not really.
Have any piercings?: ears (2 in each). too chicken shit to get any more. lol.
Have any tattoos?: no.. see above for reason..
Hate yourself?: quite frequently, but only on some levels.
Have an obsession?: I've been known to go through them (titanic, astrology were big past obsessions)... right now? not so much.. probably ice cream. hehe. j/k. internet probably..
Have a secret crush?: why should I tell you? ;) hehe. yes I do. :)
Do they know yet?: hmm.. I don't have the slightest..
Collect anything?: yeah. Sobe bottle caps, stickers, love letters
Have a best friend?: I use to... not really anymore though :(
Wish on stars?: yes. *sigh*
Like your handwriting?: eh. it's ok. use to be worse. could be better.
Have any bad habits?: yeah. beating up on myself (low self esteem); being online all the time; procrastination!; many more, I'm sure!
Care about looks?: in others? nope. i like people for who they are inside! :); for me? yes. others are too shallow and judge based on looks more, so I am always worried about my own. .. it is the basis of how most others see me. :(
Believe in witches? hmm.. I use to? . . I believe they use to exist...
Believe in Satan?: hmm. I'm not sure. there probably is a Hell.. but I dont know about Satan any more than God. . .
Believe in ghosts?: yes.
Believe this is finally over? No! OMG!! Yay!! Wheeeee. It IS a miracle (forgot what I put for that one...). lol.