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I'm having horrible, horrible problems with anxiety. Existential terror, anyone know what this is? When I am anxious, this is where my mind goes, to my belief that this is all there is. That there is no god, no afterlife, etc. And I literally have a panic attack everytime. I just did. It happened to me last night too. I remember having the same thing when I was a young teenager and mentioning it to a friend of mine who looked at me like I was crazy. I remember at that time wondering why I was thinking about this; and now here I am still wondering. I don't think I'd had problems with this again until recently. I do remember early when I was in college I did, but like when I was at UCR I don't think this happened to me. I hate it.