Wake me up inside...
I just returned from my friend Dianna's viewing. It was really tough. I thought I could hold it together. And I did for about 2 seconds until I saw her mom. I looked at her and stroked her hair and couldn't believe it was real. It felt like one of my vivid, awful dreams. I keep hoping I'm going to wake up and call her and say " I had a dream about you." But alas, I'm not going to wake up from this nightmare. It's real. Just like my ex is really never going to be in my life again because he's going to keep going the opposite way of me. That kind of real. Sucks! Pisceans hate living in reality and these last few weeks have been a crash course in it for me. But I will come out stronger than before. I am sure of that. I have an incredibly resilient heart although it has been broken often. I will be fine again. I promise you that my friends. It's just gonna take some time for me to get back to good.