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I figure i should write,just never kow what... see anything remotely interesting or important i send in weird bizare stoner middle of the moring e-mails to people (mostly to matt cause he's the only one that'll reply in nearly the exact same manner which results in strings of stonerish e-mails which are fun). check my friends page though...i still love yous!!! let's see geo's done with, presentation was a bit too long...she ended up saying "ok i'm gonna cut u off now" so i quickly rambled in two sentences about a conclusion which resolted in a glare from my geo teacher who already hates me...partly cause heather showed up asking to talk to me throughout the middle of class, and she was all like "is this an emergency do you urgently need to speak to her" which got heather all scared of her but then i notticed she was there and ran out of the room and talked to her anyway. (another evil glare). i feel like i need to DO SOMETHING i just don't know what... we ended setting the burn box off it was awsome! -sry you couldn't come adam. but we were at the park behind this old abandoned building and we had soo much stuff we were there for about an hour. we ended up throwing two lighters in stepping back and whatching them blow. but then this dog came and started barking at us so we sorta freaked and tried to put it out and trying to cover it all up with snow but there was soo much black stuff. anyway we got back to heather's at about 6. got worried when i got home though cause i smelt soo much like smoke. so i took my clothes off found an old bathrobe told my mom we weren't at heather's when she called cause we went to the park and had a snowball fight and my clothes were soaking wet and i was freazing so i wanted to take a hot shower. It seemed to work, she's pissed at me for not being at heather's when she called but i didn't get grounded which is a surprise for once. anyway ...lalalala... feel sorta i dunno haven't decided yet, confuzed then i guess. about this whole feeling thing still haven't been able to seperate them from other people's so i really don't know how i feel. well for the sake of it, i feel fine, for anyone who gets it...alright then i guess i'll go. maybe i'll try to write here at one in the morning instead of realating through random e-mails and things that don't make sense but with meaning no matter how hidden. since i'm not allowed to use the phone past 9 oclock and have a 20min. limit cause matt called my house that night at 12:30. stupid sam i never used to care about my feelings before all this i told him it really doesn't matter i'm not part of it there to help it damn him now he can't get it off my mind y does he have to care about me knowing how i feel. it doesn't matter stupid. stop putting annoying things in my mind that won't go away. stop caring about me caring for myself! i do fine without it. blah evrything is annoying now cause everyone is all nervous for stupid exams and presentations and countless other stupid pointless things that people feel at high skool that ennfolds them when there tiny things that prolly in 3 months you wouldn't care about them anyway. and there's soo many people. and they are all feeling soo strongly about something and it's confuzing more poor little mind that's trying to get a hold of all these different things. i need to block it off or teach myself too... it's all due to christmas break cause i spent soo much time with onle a few friends so you get soo much closer to them and connected and stuff and more sensitive to it. but there are only like no more than 3 other people to worry about i guess so it was fineish and there my friends so it's all good. but now cause i haven't been used to the being around crowded places again the sensitivity i gained is driving me crazy. stupid pointless dumb high skool, people don't get soo involved arrgh relax all those stupid little things arn't that big of a deal. stop poisoning my mind. anyway i'm just rambling on about random things that don't matter. so ya don't pay much attention to anything i may say. as most people have already learned listening to caitlin is not of any importance and she talks to much soo it really doesn't matter, will prolly just affect your sanity in a bad way...meh i think i'll go do something...hmm...the things is what...maybe i'll just go run around the block a couple times just get energy and stuff out.