One chapter closes and the next one begins
So my divorce was finalized Feb 16th, everyone keeps asking how I feel about it. Truthfully, it stings, because I feel like I stayed unhappy for so long because it was routine. It was something constant in my life and Richard did "get" me, we had fun together and enjoyed some of the same things. But, it is what it is and now I move forward. Josh has been great, with the divorce, my cancer, maybe not so much with the moodiness that the pills cause, but he tries. He doesn't really "get" me and he doesn't understand how I think, but he wants to and I think that is the most important part. I have someone who WANTS things, not just drift through life with no purpose, he makes plans for the future with me, I don't need to hover over him because he's never done anything for himself. Last time I talked to Richard, I asked him why I was so disposable because that's how he made me feel and he has given me several reasons over this past year, but the last time he said it was my debt, I can't help but laugh. Josh and I went over everything and my debt is next to nothing. It will be paid off in the next year. The difference is I have someone who contributes and helps and it's nice. I have a full partner and I'm enjoying it. So I say farewell to that chapter and work on being positive and getting my life where I want it to be.