fear of flight, failure, and fear itself
DO I FOCUS On modeling? fire dancing? job hunting? or the long shot that I have the $ and talent to make it for the Cirque du Soleil auditions in SF?? do ADVISE!
Auditions are on the 8th & 9th which is the same as the "Chance" event that is the participatory prerequisite to model for AMDEF which is one of the biggest modeling/fashion events of the year in Seattle... it's also on a Thursday which is when Ignition, the fire troupe I'm starting to work with, rehearses.. and there's a fashion networking event tomorrow too that I was planning to attend.. Plus it's the exact same weekend as the Book of the Law feast and my lineage is in Berkeley though I would likely miss it or not want to get drunk and esofornicate (mentally/verbally) all night long with them just before auditioning but I can't help to see the coincidence of being in the bay area... If I go for it I'll screw up all the other stuff I've been working towards so if I don't get it I'll go comatose... but if I don't try to live the dream a part of me might die inside... I'm totally PETRIFIED
HELP!?!?
CIRQUE DU SOLEIL AUDITIONS