I can never forget this...
Last night i had a dream. There are no words to describe what i felt during this dream. I felt, pain, sorrow, happiness, love, despair, stressed, exuberant, alive and dead all at the same time. :
So im running around trying to find Leon. I went to the city because i had this feeling that he would be there. The city was about to blow up. Some terrorist or something close to that, maybe even God, had launched a nuclear weapon that would first send fire around the surrounding explosion and then the shock wave, and then the actual cancerous nuclear molecules would follow thereafter. I find Leon and I was so happy and sad, because he would be the last face i would see before we die. Everyone knew that today was the day that there life would end. Some were crying, others were holding each other and others, like myself and Leon, we just sat at a table and ordered our meal, because it would be the last. Leon and i were sharing a wonderful kiss. We finally got our food and i told him that i would step outside for a second because time was running out. I stepped out and i saw explosions in and around the entire city. I ran back to Leon and i told him that this was the last thing that we would remember. Im crying and he's just looking at me and i said, "Leon, i love you very much, dont forget me." He said the same to me. I left the table and i stepped outside because i didnt want to burn alive. I wanted the shock wave to hit me and obliterate my entire being so that i wouldnt feel anything. A blue fire splash of flame, the shock wave, came and ripped my skin off my entire body, but i was still alive. I knelt on the floor and then the molecular blast came and i was dissentegrating slowly, as a vampire would to the sun, or as a witch would to water. I saw a man and he was in pain. I was so upset, it was my time dieing, so young... "Why am i still breathing?" I got up from the floor and i noticed that everyone was in a line. All those that have died were standing right in front of me. We were in "heaven." I was angry, because for some reason, not only did i still have human feelings, but knew that someone very important to me might not be there, Leon. I ran so hard because i needed to know Leon was there with me. I kept looking back and forth, but i had to continue in my place in line. I turned to the left and i saw Leon in a suit and tie, we were all dressed differently. I yelled his name and he looked at me and stared. I began to cry because i felt that he didnt recognize me. i went up to him, "Leon, I may not matter to you as much as i did when we were alive, but know this, please know, that i loved you, and i still love you." there was no way he could have understood me, he just stared at me. I was crying because this was it... he would never know what we had... Then he kissed me, "You know i cant forget you, i love you too." I jumped on him and we both hugged. No one cared that there were two guys kissing and hugging. We were all in "heaven." I was so worried because i thought, Leon wouldnt be there since he's an agnostic/athiest. But the fact of the matter is, Leon and i were together in happiness.
***i wake up to take a piss, came back to bed***
I was at the mall when my former best friend came up to me and he said, "i killed your mother." i went insane with rage, "julio, i will kill you, you do understand that your life ends with me." He said, "We'll see." So we jumped off the balcony from the third floor of the mall. I grabbed a nylon sign that was tied at the second floor and i held on to julio with my other arm. I swung to the lower sign on the first floor and i caught it. I dropped julio on the floor and stood watching me. I swung to a wall and held on to it sliding down. Julio noticed that i hit the floor and he bolted in a sprint towards the exit. I ran after him screaming at him that there would be no escape because his life would end today. So, he suddenly stopped as i was getting closer to him and he turned around and punched me in the face. I flew back far and i hit the wall of a building, completely destroying it. i got up and ran towards him in a mad dash and drove my fist into his cheek.
I woke up very upset because i wanted to keep sleeping. I wanted to continue to dream about me and leon being happy. I didnt want to come back to reality. Shit i dont know but my dreams are becoming increasingly horrendous. i dont understand how everytime i sleep with Leon, i have nightmares. Everytime i sleep in my dorm room i have a mix of both dreams and nightmares... i dont understand... I quit smoking like 3 weeks ago, i feel very strong and very powerful; i went out to the park yesterday and i played handball, and i am paying for it today, every muscle in my body hurts; im not depressed and im very happy, i dont understand whats going on. im not sick. im healthy.
So im running around trying to find Leon. I went to the city because i had this feeling that he would be there. The city was about to blow up. Some terrorist or something close to that, maybe even God, had launched a nuclear weapon that would first send fire around the surrounding explosion and then the shock wave, and then the actual cancerous nuclear molecules would follow thereafter. I find Leon and I was so happy and sad, because he would be the last face i would see before we die. Everyone knew that today was the day that there life would end. Some were crying, others were holding each other and others, like myself and Leon, we just sat at a table and ordered our meal, because it would be the last. Leon and i were sharing a wonderful kiss. We finally got our food and i told him that i would step outside for a second because time was running out. I stepped out and i saw explosions in and around the entire city. I ran back to Leon and i told him that this was the last thing that we would remember. Im crying and he's just looking at me and i said, "Leon, i love you very much, dont forget me." He said the same to me. I left the table and i stepped outside because i didnt want to burn alive. I wanted the shock wave to hit me and obliterate my entire being so that i wouldnt feel anything. A blue fire splash of flame, the shock wave, came and ripped my skin off my entire body, but i was still alive. I knelt on the floor and then the molecular blast came and i was dissentegrating slowly, as a vampire would to the sun, or as a witch would to water. I saw a man and he was in pain. I was so upset, it was my time dieing, so young... "Why am i still breathing?" I got up from the floor and i noticed that everyone was in a line. All those that have died were standing right in front of me. We were in "heaven." I was angry, because for some reason, not only did i still have human feelings, but knew that someone very important to me might not be there, Leon. I ran so hard because i needed to know Leon was there with me. I kept looking back and forth, but i had to continue in my place in line. I turned to the left and i saw Leon in a suit and tie, we were all dressed differently. I yelled his name and he looked at me and stared. I began to cry because i felt that he didnt recognize me. i went up to him, "Leon, I may not matter to you as much as i did when we were alive, but know this, please know, that i loved you, and i still love you." there was no way he could have understood me, he just stared at me. I was crying because this was it... he would never know what we had... Then he kissed me, "You know i cant forget you, i love you too." I jumped on him and we both hugged. No one cared that there were two guys kissing and hugging. We were all in "heaven." I was so worried because i thought, Leon wouldnt be there since he's an agnostic/athiest. But the fact of the matter is, Leon and i were together in happiness.
***i wake up to take a piss, came back to bed***
I was at the mall when my former best friend came up to me and he said, "i killed your mother." i went insane with rage, "julio, i will kill you, you do understand that your life ends with me." He said, "We'll see." So we jumped off the balcony from the third floor of the mall. I grabbed a nylon sign that was tied at the second floor and i held on to julio with my other arm. I swung to the lower sign on the first floor and i caught it. I dropped julio on the floor and stood watching me. I swung to a wall and held on to it sliding down. Julio noticed that i hit the floor and he bolted in a sprint towards the exit. I ran after him screaming at him that there would be no escape because his life would end today. So, he suddenly stopped as i was getting closer to him and he turned around and punched me in the face. I flew back far and i hit the wall of a building, completely destroying it. i got up and ran towards him in a mad dash and drove my fist into his cheek.
I woke up very upset because i wanted to keep sleeping. I wanted to continue to dream about me and leon being happy. I didnt want to come back to reality. Shit i dont know but my dreams are becoming increasingly horrendous. i dont understand how everytime i sleep with Leon, i have nightmares. Everytime i sleep in my dorm room i have a mix of both dreams and nightmares... i dont understand... I quit smoking like 3 weeks ago, i feel very strong and very powerful; i went out to the park yesterday and i played handball, and i am paying for it today, every muscle in my body hurts; im not depressed and im very happy, i dont understand whats going on. im not sick. im healthy.