6 long years later!
Hello live journal! I'm certainly not expecting anyone to be on here anymore, but still, I felt like I just had to post something! I was reading through so many of my older journal entries, and I couldn't help but grimace haha. Sometimes I like to think "I really haven't changed all that much since High School or my early years of college." Then I read my past entries and realization strikes! I am completely different, and extremely happy about that fact. Let's see...what's happened since 2008?
*** If you want to skip ahead to current events, scroll down. Haha
2008: I'm still living in the dorms and separating myself from a few unhealthy relationships. Being out of my parents house has given me a whole new perspective for which I am eternally grateful for. I go on a trip to Chicago which ended up being the trip from Hell. This is also the first year I dub my car "Trixie" because she can no longer do long road trips all around the south haha. (But I mean hey, I'm still driving her so obviously it's ok...for now) School is going terribly, I scrape by but in the later half of 2008 I'm working two intense jobs, going to school full time, trying to maintain a social life and not being honest with myself and my abilities. I also fall in love again this year, it's not going to last and I'm going to fall on my face again, but I'm grateful to him for all the things I learned and all the ways in which I grew. I also move into a condo downtown! I'm out of the dorms and making it work, life seems to be going a tad better.
2009: BOOM! Life explodes in my face, haha. This year kind of melts into a bunch of blurred images for me. I just remember that school was on a hold for a semester and I was just working and living downtown. I was pretty depressed for a couple of months there, but taking a semester break from school helped me focus on my job and what it is I wanted to do with my life. This gave me a new drive, and I started doing much better. I learned that I am a fighter and I don't just accept bad things happening so even though this year was marred with financial woes, Dusty dying, College stress and loneliness, it all ended on an extremely positive note! I think this is the year I went to DC but I can't remember for sure. *shrugs*
2010: This is going to be an excellent year. I get a cat named willow in January, it snows in February, I have an excellent spring fling with this really handsome journalist, I'm close with all of my Wings friends, though I may have developed a slight drinking problem because I go out every night with friends from work. I even studied at a bar one night (the last time I ever did that) and needless to say it didn't end well. School is stressful in the sense that my friends are all graduating before me, but it's ok because I change my major and it's the best decision I've ever made. I meet Kina who becomes pregnant with Savannah and I'm totally in love, Kina quickly becomes a close friend and I can honestly say we are like family right now. During the summer I take an amazing psychology and film class, and it really sets the tone for the new semester coming up in which I start all my Arts classes. I finally move out of downtown into a charming little west Ashley apartment (which I'm still currently living in) and my lifelong dream of living on my own is fulfilled. This was an incredible year full of life changing events for me.
2011: I guess we all have calm boring years. This one doesn't really stand out for me too much. I make a few bad choices because all I focus on is work and school, which means some of my friends from college are being alienated. While being serious about school helped me make an amazing GPA, I sometimes wish I had learned to better balance my time. I was alone a lot this year, but movie night people and time with my family and Leni really helped me through. At this point I've learned to hide my emotions better, I guess it's because I was finally old enough to realize not everyone can or wants to hear about all the little worries and stresses in life. I go visit Canada with Kina during the summer and She's pregnant with Malcolm! It's a wonderful time, and even though this year wasn't as crazy as the year before, I appreciate the calm and peace.
2012: This is another big year for me! I graduate college in May, spend the summer looking desperately for jobs and then end up finding one at the most amazing place ever. I work as a child advocate and receptionist and meet Pandie, my coworker, who turns into a type of mentor for me and whom I am eternally grateful for. While the year itself is full of big events, it's also kind of overshadowed by sadness, change, and the heartbreak of losing someone we care about. By the end of this year I kind of fall into depression, but I don't tell anyone because I don't want them to worry.
2013: This was a year for change, and positive one! The depression from the year before is finally too unbearable so I share it with my friend Kina who becomes a gigantic force of positive emotion, energy and change. I decide it's time for a diet because I'm the biggest I've ever been and start changing how I live. We do yoga, eat healthy and I begin to socialize more often. I think this is the year I decide I'm done being alone, though I'm not quite ready for online dating, simply because I feel in my bones that the person I meet I will meet in person. The diet comes to a standstill, but I am feeling better about myself, and even get an art commission from work which makes me glad because it's extra money. Independence Day I meet someone I really care about, and in many ways still do. Our relationship doesn't last and I'm sad for a while, but we manage to be friends and because of him I meet a lot of truly excellent people. At this point I'm even more determined to make a change in my life and start losing weight and look into overseas living and travel.
And that's a wrap!
It's march now, and I don't know what the future of this year will hold. Maybe a promotion at work? Maybe living in another country? Maybe fall in love? I've put things in motion so that I can DO something. I'm 27, going on 28. I'm unmarried and childless, so if I want an adventure, now is the time! Looking at past entries and past years I have come to realize that yes...I have gone through serious changes, and in many ways I'm a completely different person, but in many ways I'm exactly the same. I'm still a sap, a hopeless romantic, a dreamer...not that these things are necessarily bad ;) ANYWAYS! Maybe I'll try updating every few months or so just so that I can keep record of things. Or not, haha. If anyone actually read this and made it this far, you have way too much time on your hands! Get out there and take a walk or buy a coffee or something haha. I kid I kid. Seriously though, thanks for reading if you did! And have a spectacular day. :)
*** If you want to skip ahead to current events, scroll down. Haha
2008: I'm still living in the dorms and separating myself from a few unhealthy relationships. Being out of my parents house has given me a whole new perspective for which I am eternally grateful for. I go on a trip to Chicago which ended up being the trip from Hell. This is also the first year I dub my car "Trixie" because she can no longer do long road trips all around the south haha. (But I mean hey, I'm still driving her so obviously it's ok...for now) School is going terribly, I scrape by but in the later half of 2008 I'm working two intense jobs, going to school full time, trying to maintain a social life and not being honest with myself and my abilities. I also fall in love again this year, it's not going to last and I'm going to fall on my face again, but I'm grateful to him for all the things I learned and all the ways in which I grew. I also move into a condo downtown! I'm out of the dorms and making it work, life seems to be going a tad better.
2009: BOOM! Life explodes in my face, haha. This year kind of melts into a bunch of blurred images for me. I just remember that school was on a hold for a semester and I was just working and living downtown. I was pretty depressed for a couple of months there, but taking a semester break from school helped me focus on my job and what it is I wanted to do with my life. This gave me a new drive, and I started doing much better. I learned that I am a fighter and I don't just accept bad things happening so even though this year was marred with financial woes, Dusty dying, College stress and loneliness, it all ended on an extremely positive note! I think this is the year I went to DC but I can't remember for sure. *shrugs*
2010: This is going to be an excellent year. I get a cat named willow in January, it snows in February, I have an excellent spring fling with this really handsome journalist, I'm close with all of my Wings friends, though I may have developed a slight drinking problem because I go out every night with friends from work. I even studied at a bar one night (the last time I ever did that) and needless to say it didn't end well. School is stressful in the sense that my friends are all graduating before me, but it's ok because I change my major and it's the best decision I've ever made. I meet Kina who becomes pregnant with Savannah and I'm totally in love, Kina quickly becomes a close friend and I can honestly say we are like family right now. During the summer I take an amazing psychology and film class, and it really sets the tone for the new semester coming up in which I start all my Arts classes. I finally move out of downtown into a charming little west Ashley apartment (which I'm still currently living in) and my lifelong dream of living on my own is fulfilled. This was an incredible year full of life changing events for me.
2011: I guess we all have calm boring years. This one doesn't really stand out for me too much. I make a few bad choices because all I focus on is work and school, which means some of my friends from college are being alienated. While being serious about school helped me make an amazing GPA, I sometimes wish I had learned to better balance my time. I was alone a lot this year, but movie night people and time with my family and Leni really helped me through. At this point I've learned to hide my emotions better, I guess it's because I was finally old enough to realize not everyone can or wants to hear about all the little worries and stresses in life. I go visit Canada with Kina during the summer and She's pregnant with Malcolm! It's a wonderful time, and even though this year wasn't as crazy as the year before, I appreciate the calm and peace.
2012: This is another big year for me! I graduate college in May, spend the summer looking desperately for jobs and then end up finding one at the most amazing place ever. I work as a child advocate and receptionist and meet Pandie, my coworker, who turns into a type of mentor for me and whom I am eternally grateful for. While the year itself is full of big events, it's also kind of overshadowed by sadness, change, and the heartbreak of losing someone we care about. By the end of this year I kind of fall into depression, but I don't tell anyone because I don't want them to worry.
2013: This was a year for change, and positive one! The depression from the year before is finally too unbearable so I share it with my friend Kina who becomes a gigantic force of positive emotion, energy and change. I decide it's time for a diet because I'm the biggest I've ever been and start changing how I live. We do yoga, eat healthy and I begin to socialize more often. I think this is the year I decide I'm done being alone, though I'm not quite ready for online dating, simply because I feel in my bones that the person I meet I will meet in person. The diet comes to a standstill, but I am feeling better about myself, and even get an art commission from work which makes me glad because it's extra money. Independence Day I meet someone I really care about, and in many ways still do. Our relationship doesn't last and I'm sad for a while, but we manage to be friends and because of him I meet a lot of truly excellent people. At this point I'm even more determined to make a change in my life and start losing weight and look into overseas living and travel.
And that's a wrap!
It's march now, and I don't know what the future of this year will hold. Maybe a promotion at work? Maybe living in another country? Maybe fall in love? I've put things in motion so that I can DO something. I'm 27, going on 28. I'm unmarried and childless, so if I want an adventure, now is the time! Looking at past entries and past years I have come to realize that yes...I have gone through serious changes, and in many ways I'm a completely different person, but in many ways I'm exactly the same. I'm still a sap, a hopeless romantic, a dreamer...not that these things are necessarily bad ;) ANYWAYS! Maybe I'll try updating every few months or so just so that I can keep record of things. Or not, haha. If anyone actually read this and made it this far, you have way too much time on your hands! Get out there and take a walk or buy a coffee or something haha. I kid I kid. Seriously though, thanks for reading if you did! And have a spectacular day. :)