how im still alive and partially sane..I have NO idea!!
I'm just going to make this short since im beat and i just got back from rehearsals and wild wings. I wanted to let anyone whose interested know that Friday, Saturday and Sunday are the days for the play i'm in, "The canterbury tales" I'm the cook as well as the hen Pertelote and friday and saturday the tickets are $15 each (ee...i know...pricey...) and sunday they are 8 bucks for students (which all of you are) the showtimes for friday and saturday are at 8 at night, and sunday its 3 in the afternoon. I would REALLY love it if any of you could make it, but i realize its expensive and its kind of out of the way for a lot of you...but really it would be nice.
So much has been going on in my life it's been crazy. Matt and i have been arguing a lot more lately and really this depresses me so much. You know its really hard to be away from him, but for the most part ive been doing really good! this play has been a life saver. I mean, yes...the hours are insane, and i havent been able to really go out at night with other people other than the theatre folk but really....if it werent for the constant hours and having no choice but to do something after work right away i would be even more torn about the whole matt thing. It just gave me the best perspectives on life ever. I'm doing great in my classes now, I've talked out my future with my teachers, i know all the teachers in the psychology department and am on first name terms with all of them (though i still prefer calling them by ther last names). It's just for the first time in a really long time i have some stability back and i think im going to be okay. And even though Matt and i have been fighting or rather arguing more as of late...there is something in the way our relationship has been going thats made me feel even more independent. You know, there will always be a part of me that is in love with him (a bigger part than i can help im afraid), and there will always be that place in my heart that no one will be able to replace; that belongs soley to him, he has made me so different from who i was before and i really must thank him for that. I'm going to get hurt still, i know that...but he's made it ok for me. Maybe one day he will see that, and maybe the guilt trips will cease. Who knows?! All i know is that if it werent for the play and the people ive met there and my late night convos with leni or sam or my litte convos with matt i would be lost.
Oh! and i got a new puppy! her name is daisy and she is a black lab/deer hound mix. most adorable puppy ever, and shes my night time partner. ;)
I want to explain so much more...I want to talk about my philosophy class and the future im dreaming of and i want to talk about the day when i was noticing all the "perfect imperfections" but alas, thats a story for another day.
I love you guys, and im sorry ive been so out of it as of late. I'm going through a momentous stage in my life and im just waiting to see which pitfall ill be stepping into now...one thats an endless hole, or one thats only knee deep. hmmm...lol,
Love you mi amores!!
ciao
Jesse
So much has been going on in my life it's been crazy. Matt and i have been arguing a lot more lately and really this depresses me so much. You know its really hard to be away from him, but for the most part ive been doing really good! this play has been a life saver. I mean, yes...the hours are insane, and i havent been able to really go out at night with other people other than the theatre folk but really....if it werent for the constant hours and having no choice but to do something after work right away i would be even more torn about the whole matt thing. It just gave me the best perspectives on life ever. I'm doing great in my classes now, I've talked out my future with my teachers, i know all the teachers in the psychology department and am on first name terms with all of them (though i still prefer calling them by ther last names). It's just for the first time in a really long time i have some stability back and i think im going to be okay. And even though Matt and i have been fighting or rather arguing more as of late...there is something in the way our relationship has been going thats made me feel even more independent. You know, there will always be a part of me that is in love with him (a bigger part than i can help im afraid), and there will always be that place in my heart that no one will be able to replace; that belongs soley to him, he has made me so different from who i was before and i really must thank him for that. I'm going to get hurt still, i know that...but he's made it ok for me. Maybe one day he will see that, and maybe the guilt trips will cease. Who knows?! All i know is that if it werent for the play and the people ive met there and my late night convos with leni or sam or my litte convos with matt i would be lost.
Oh! and i got a new puppy! her name is daisy and she is a black lab/deer hound mix. most adorable puppy ever, and shes my night time partner. ;)
I want to explain so much more...I want to talk about my philosophy class and the future im dreaming of and i want to talk about the day when i was noticing all the "perfect imperfections" but alas, thats a story for another day.
I love you guys, and im sorry ive been so out of it as of late. I'm going through a momentous stage in my life and im just waiting to see which pitfall ill be stepping into now...one thats an endless hole, or one thats only knee deep. hmmm...lol,
Love you mi amores!!
ciao
Jesse