'Tis a Beautiful Morning!!!
"You're the voice, crying out in the wilderness.
You're the voice that makes my brain burn and my guts go gooey.
Yeah, you gut me.
My insides spill on your alter and tell the future.
My steaming, gleaming guts spell out your nature.
I know you, not your name but your game.
I know the true you.
Come to me, or I'll come to you."
~Samantha Mathis in Pump Up the Volume
I have had that stuck in my head for about a week now and I just had to spill it out! It's almost scary how I don't really remember watching the movie all that much but yet I somehow memorized both of the poems in that movie...hmmm. I really think that movie is a true Tara-classic (and yes, there is such a thing...as of now!). It's got almost everything I have ever dreamed of thrown into a movie...the quiet, shy nerd (who happens to be Christian Slater *sigh*), raunchy sex humor, an awesome soundtrack, and weird rather random poetry. All I need is some Jet Li type violence and someone's nuts to get blown off and I'd be in movie ecstacy!
Speaking of movies, I watched Napoleon Dynamite for the first time last night. I swear, I went through almost the entire movie swearing up and down that I didn't particularly care for it but by the end, it was love! Now I'm going to have to spend more money I don't have!
Also bought Blade Trinity last night so now I must find time to sit down so I can have non G-rated thoughts about Ryan Reynolds.
So it is now less than a month until Josh leaves for basic. I think it's just now starting to sink in that he's really going to be gone for 5 whole months and I'm starting to get squirmy. Everything's so confusing as far as how I feel right now (about him and other people) and part of me just wants him to stay because it's much more comfortable than being forced to sit here alone without a guy and figure out what the hell I want. I haven't been without a guy since I started dating (when I was 14) for more than a couple of months. Sure, I went without a boyfriend for over a year, but there was always some guy to either be in love with me that I had some sort of kinda sorta fling with or just friends that I could count on to snuggle and just be there. But now I'm terrified that for the first time in 7 years I might actually truly be on my own for awhile. *shudder*
But on the positive note, I will have the entire summer to grow in God and in myself and figure out who the hell I am because I don't think I know half the time. So there's a whole excitement element to this as well. I'm just ready to know already. Patience is not one of my strong points.
Had very wonderful conversations with two of my favorite guys in the whole wide world: Trey and Andrew. I miss Trey so dang much and he really needs to come back. He really is my non-romantic soulmate and life hasn't been quite as amusing since he left (the one exception being one day in March). Now if he'd just ditch the pesky girlfriend and move back here (I seem to say that a lot)! Andrew is about to be manager at Tinseltown which means that I get to see him all dressed up and make him laugh and glare at me, which always makes my day brighter. He's really such a sweetheart and I love those rare little moments when we stop harassing each other and actually have a good conversation...but making him glare is really fun too!
Okay, enough rambling as I have less than 8 hours to sleep now. That should make work fun, as it's always more interesting when I'm grumpy. Then I have my first weekend off in months and months. Granted there'll be nothing to do as everyone else is working, but hey, more time for me to live at Barnes n Noble...home sweet home! God bless and have a lovely day/night!
You're the voice that makes my brain burn and my guts go gooey.
Yeah, you gut me.
My insides spill on your alter and tell the future.
My steaming, gleaming guts spell out your nature.
I know you, not your name but your game.
I know the true you.
Come to me, or I'll come to you."
~Samantha Mathis in Pump Up the Volume
I have had that stuck in my head for about a week now and I just had to spill it out! It's almost scary how I don't really remember watching the movie all that much but yet I somehow memorized both of the poems in that movie...hmmm. I really think that movie is a true Tara-classic (and yes, there is such a thing...as of now!). It's got almost everything I have ever dreamed of thrown into a movie...the quiet, shy nerd (who happens to be Christian Slater *sigh*), raunchy sex humor, an awesome soundtrack, and weird rather random poetry. All I need is some Jet Li type violence and someone's nuts to get blown off and I'd be in movie ecstacy!
Speaking of movies, I watched Napoleon Dynamite for the first time last night. I swear, I went through almost the entire movie swearing up and down that I didn't particularly care for it but by the end, it was love! Now I'm going to have to spend more money I don't have!
Also bought Blade Trinity last night so now I must find time to sit down so I can have non G-rated thoughts about Ryan Reynolds.
So it is now less than a month until Josh leaves for basic. I think it's just now starting to sink in that he's really going to be gone for 5 whole months and I'm starting to get squirmy. Everything's so confusing as far as how I feel right now (about him and other people) and part of me just wants him to stay because it's much more comfortable than being forced to sit here alone without a guy and figure out what the hell I want. I haven't been without a guy since I started dating (when I was 14) for more than a couple of months. Sure, I went without a boyfriend for over a year, but there was always some guy to either be in love with me that I had some sort of kinda sorta fling with or just friends that I could count on to snuggle and just be there. But now I'm terrified that for the first time in 7 years I might actually truly be on my own for awhile. *shudder*
But on the positive note, I will have the entire summer to grow in God and in myself and figure out who the hell I am because I don't think I know half the time. So there's a whole excitement element to this as well. I'm just ready to know already. Patience is not one of my strong points.
Had very wonderful conversations with two of my favorite guys in the whole wide world: Trey and Andrew. I miss Trey so dang much and he really needs to come back. He really is my non-romantic soulmate and life hasn't been quite as amusing since he left (the one exception being one day in March). Now if he'd just ditch the pesky girlfriend and move back here (I seem to say that a lot)! Andrew is about to be manager at Tinseltown which means that I get to see him all dressed up and make him laugh and glare at me, which always makes my day brighter. He's really such a sweetheart and I love those rare little moments when we stop harassing each other and actually have a good conversation...but making him glare is really fun too!
Okay, enough rambling as I have less than 8 hours to sleep now. That should make work fun, as it's always more interesting when I'm grumpy. Then I have my first weekend off in months and months. Granted there'll be nothing to do as everyone else is working, but hey, more time for me to live at Barnes n Noble...home sweet home! God bless and have a lovely day/night!