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Okay so ShaunShaun n I have another damn fight and I'm soooo freakin sick of it. I've actually started to wonder if it's just me or not. So I started to watch what I would say and crap then all of a sudden he'd take it all wrong n start going off on me. Now he's talking about killin' himself n bullshit so I got sick of it n told him to either stfu or just do it. I mean I've been friends n somewhat more with him for 5 years and I know him.. and it's sick that he'd even talk about that shit knowing I care about him. I've been thru this shit with Rob and even tried it with myself and I'm not gonna go thru it again. If you talk about killin' yourself 9 times outta 10 you aint gonna do it, you just be talkin shit.
But whatever... I'm just tired of it.. he'll get tired of playing games sooner or later. I still love him but he's gonna wake up.
Anyways on a lighter note last nyte was getting on my nerves at work but then we kinda died down so Michelle n I went outside to smoke n talk. Come to find out there are alot more street racing going on here then I thought. I mean it's fast n furious shit so I'ma try to hook up with her this saturday nyte n goto the usual hang out n see people talk shit til they put their money where their mouth is. It should be interesting. I'ma stay safe but still get the thrill.
Well we were out there n just hangin out and all of a sudden we hear a truck comin n I took and I was like "I know you aint gonna come thru here n make me get off my lazy ass just to fix you food" It was Jason, the guy that lives in my Apt building (we've been eyein each other for over a year now) Well he's hours have changed once again so that's why I don't see him much anymore. We talked for about 20ish mins then when he ordered food I slipped my number in the bag.
My God what was I thinking? I don't mean it just as a bf type of thing.. friends are good too ya know. But I was so freakin nervous and I still am. Wondering if he's gonna call but even if he doesn't it's all good. I was just makin the 1st move and now the ball is in his court. But what was so funny is that I've never been so nervous about giving someone my number cept when I actually had balls to go up to Kris that nyte after work n give him it. But like I said it's not a big deal, he's into the same stuff I am, he's into street racing n crap so I mean so far it's a good friendship. Who knows who cares.
Anyways I'ma get off here n start getting ready for work. It's gonna be hell tonyte coz the drunks are gonna be comin. Oh well let's see how long I last tonyte.
- tata kiddies
But whatever... I'm just tired of it.. he'll get tired of playing games sooner or later. I still love him but he's gonna wake up.
Anyways on a lighter note last nyte was getting on my nerves at work but then we kinda died down so Michelle n I went outside to smoke n talk. Come to find out there are alot more street racing going on here then I thought. I mean it's fast n furious shit so I'ma try to hook up with her this saturday nyte n goto the usual hang out n see people talk shit til they put their money where their mouth is. It should be interesting. I'ma stay safe but still get the thrill.
Well we were out there n just hangin out and all of a sudden we hear a truck comin n I took and I was like "I know you aint gonna come thru here n make me get off my lazy ass just to fix you food" It was Jason, the guy that lives in my Apt building (we've been eyein each other for over a year now) Well he's hours have changed once again so that's why I don't see him much anymore. We talked for about 20ish mins then when he ordered food I slipped my number in the bag.
My God what was I thinking? I don't mean it just as a bf type of thing.. friends are good too ya know. But I was so freakin nervous and I still am. Wondering if he's gonna call but even if he doesn't it's all good. I was just makin the 1st move and now the ball is in his court. But what was so funny is that I've never been so nervous about giving someone my number cept when I actually had balls to go up to Kris that nyte after work n give him it. But like I said it's not a big deal, he's into the same stuff I am, he's into street racing n crap so I mean so far it's a good friendship. Who knows who cares.
Anyways I'ma get off here n start getting ready for work. It's gonna be hell tonyte coz the drunks are gonna be comin. Oh well let's see how long I last tonyte.
- tata kiddies