no body said it was easy
summer is here
summer will end faster than i had planned
i am the manger at sears hardwear. its alot of stupid work. i get paid alot tho, so im tryen to figure out if it balances out. i doubt that it does tho. on my days off im worken back at duchess. so i work seven days a week, and feeling the tiredness.
i have to find a student loan for school.. stress
i need to change my classes... stress
should find a new job for the fall... stress
i am stress
i have all these plans to do shit, but when it comes down to it, im either too tired or dont have the time to do what i want because im worken. i feel like im starting life out on the wrong foot, having 20 grand in loans just to learn? and then working myself into the ground just to pay off the damn loans? its a big circle of nothingness.
its kinda sad to think that im doing all this work for nothing. then it makes me question why bother to go to school, and then i step into duchess and realize i dont want to be there forever so school is just what i have to do. errrr
there is one stable thing in my life, that hasnt left and i am sooo glad.
whenever i get lost in life or just fuck up, as i usually do, hes always there and no matter how bad things get hes there to pick up my pieces.
i really do think after all we have been through that were ment to be with eachother. and yes im talking about kyle. the one person who id ever be willing to change for and the one person who understands how i think, no matter how fucked up it is. how do you make me feel like you do?
i have nothing else to say
livelife
summer will end faster than i had planned
i am the manger at sears hardwear. its alot of stupid work. i get paid alot tho, so im tryen to figure out if it balances out. i doubt that it does tho. on my days off im worken back at duchess. so i work seven days a week, and feeling the tiredness.
i have to find a student loan for school.. stress
i need to change my classes... stress
should find a new job for the fall... stress
i am stress
i have all these plans to do shit, but when it comes down to it, im either too tired or dont have the time to do what i want because im worken. i feel like im starting life out on the wrong foot, having 20 grand in loans just to learn? and then working myself into the ground just to pay off the damn loans? its a big circle of nothingness.
its kinda sad to think that im doing all this work for nothing. then it makes me question why bother to go to school, and then i step into duchess and realize i dont want to be there forever so school is just what i have to do. errrr
there is one stable thing in my life, that hasnt left and i am sooo glad.
whenever i get lost in life or just fuck up, as i usually do, hes always there and no matter how bad things get hes there to pick up my pieces.
i really do think after all we have been through that were ment to be with eachother. and yes im talking about kyle. the one person who id ever be willing to change for and the one person who understands how i think, no matter how fucked up it is. how do you make me feel like you do?
i have nothing else to say
livelife