Let the Begging Begin
***** [7:24 PM]: whats up?
Coley5487 [7:26 PM]: okay.. well.. as you know this practice wasnt very fun at all. At the end, I was pretty sure that I was going to go to guidance tomorrow and see if i could switch out of band. The deal is that I dont think i have as much commitment as you want us to have. I was so humilated today when you had us do that. I know it was my fault, but it discouraged me so much that I don't feel like I have enough time to practice as much as you'd like.
***** [7:27 PM]: you didnt play bad
***** [7:27 PM]: and I wasnt trying to humiliate anyone
***** [7:28 PM]: dont be discouraged...you are too good a player
***** [7:28 PM]: we are all stressed with other stuff....but it will all work out ok
Coley5487 [7:28 PM]: I was just so discouraged. It's incredibly humiliating. I've heard Alicia play it better, so I know when you put people on the spot, they generally dont do their greatest.
***** [7:29 PM]: that is the only way I can tell who needs what...
***** [7:29 PM]: we've done that before.
***** [7:29 PM]: its the way band is....at whatever level
Coley5487 [7:29 PM]: when you had all teh woodwind go so slowly through the one part and said it was we didnt practice, that was the section that was on our playing tests, i know all the clarinets can play it, we just cant play it together, we needed that tiem to get it together, we had practiced it
Coley5487 [7:30 PM]: adn thats what is so frustrating
***** [7:30 PM]: I always had to play in front of people
***** [7:30 PM]: i know that everyone practiced it for their test...but it has been getting progressively worse since not everyone has kept it up
***** [7:31 PM]: i think some people have got complacent with it....
***** [7:31 PM]: it is something that needs to be practiced everyday...or at least played everyday a few times.
***** [7:31 PM]: same thing with the trumpets today...
***** [7:31 PM]: when we went slow to fast...it got sooo much better...
Coley5487 [7:32 PM]: which is what I am saying....i dont think i have enough time or commitment to be able to do all you ask. you want the people who can do this for you, adn im not so sure i can
***** [7:32 PM]: that is an indication that if everyone spent the 5-10 minutes on their own on the hard stuff...it would be way better in rehearsal
***** [7:32 PM]: it would be much more of a detriment to the band if you left...
***** [7:33 PM]: if you and others really feel this way I would much rather knock the level of music down to A, and keep everyone in
***** [7:33 PM]: I was devasted when Emily left last year...
Coley5487 [7:33 PM]: i dotn want to pull it down for teh people who work for it
***** [7:33 PM]: *devastated
***** [7:34 PM]: you are not one of the ones I am worried about...I know you practice
***** [7:34 PM]: when you can...
***** [7:34 PM]: when swimming lets up...you will have more time...i know.
Coley5487 [7:34 PM]: ...work will get heavier
***** [7:34 PM]: so, do what you can.
***** [7:34 PM]: and I wont put you on the spot again.
Coley5487 [7:34 PM]: i dotn want to bring anyone down
***** [7:35 PM]: you wont.
***** [7:35 PM]: you will if you quit
***** [7:35 PM]: that would be the worst thing for the section
Coley5487 [7:35 PM]: oh, right, make me feel bad
***** [7:35 PM]: its true
***** [7:35 PM]: you have the best tone in the entire section
***** [7:36 PM]: im not trying to make you feel bad...i am trying to build you up
***** [7:36 PM]: I dont know why you have such a bad self concept about your playing
***** [7:36 PM]: you are a great player
Coley5487 [7:36 PM]: and yet im still seated low...i didnt get repayed for hard work...it was embarassign to be seated first, then move to 5th
***** [7:37 PM]: but you said so yourself the music was much more easier in the 3rd part....
***** [7:37 PM]: do you think you would have the time to work up the 1st part?
Coley5487 [7:37 PM]: no
***** [7:37 PM]: seems like playing 3rd fits your disposition with time constraints
***** [7:38 PM]: Erin, Alicia, and Madeline have less going on than you
***** [7:38 PM]: they have more time to practice, prepare auditions, etc.
***** [7:38 PM]: your placement is not a reflection of poor musicianship....
***** [7:39 PM]: all of the players in the section are good
Coley5487 [7:40 PM]: i doesnt seem fun lately
***** [7:40 PM]: work is never fun...
***** [7:41 PM]: fun..is when we play well....
***** [7:41 PM]: and know it.
Coley5487 [7:41 PM]: and unlike grand nationals, this part doesnt pay off
***** [7:41 PM]: how so....
***** [7:41 PM]: going to state is not a payoff?
Coley5487 [7:41 PM]: wouldnt state be next year
***** [7:41 PM]: state is in April
***** [7:41 PM]: if we get a I at Districts....we go to STATE!!!
Coley5487 [7:42 PM]: we got a 1 last year
***** [7:42 PM]: Bellbrook hasnt been to state in decades....well, at least several years.
***** [7:42 PM]: yes, but state festival conflicted with musical last year...
***** [7:42 PM]: we scheduled musical this year around a prospective state trip!!!!
***** [7:42 PM]: last year when we got a I, everyone wanted to go to state
***** [7:43 PM]: so, if we get a I this time...we will go.
**boring part talking about NYC***
***** [7:45 PM]: listen..........dont sweat wind ensembe.
***** [7:46 PM]: i was in a bad mood today anyhow...
***** [7:46 PM]: my dogs ate my minidisc recorder
Coley5487 [7:46 PM]: well its been brewign ever since seating was announced
Coley5487 [7:46 PM]: RIP minidisc
***** [7:46 PM]: i know....dont be embarrassed....
***** [7:46 PM]: those girls are very good, as are you...
***** [7:46 PM]: but if you are really steamed....challenge em.
***** [7:47 PM]: I am putting the sheet up tomorrow.
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]: *cough*phil*cough*
***** [7:47 PM]: exactly.
***** [7:47 PM]: oops..
***** [7:47 PM]: sorry
***** [7:47 PM]: Phil is very good too.
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]: i know he's pretty girly, but uhh....
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]:
***** [7:47 PM]: Besides....Mrs. Siler would never forgive you if you left.
***** [7:47 PM]: :)
***** [7:47 PM]: :(
Coley5487 [7:48 PM]: of course id still do clarinet choir
***** [7:48 PM]: not if you quit WE.
Coley5487 [7:48 PM]: i'll see what happens
***** [7:48 PM]: its only for members of the bands....:(
***** [7:48 PM]: YOU CANNOT QUIT
***** [7:48 PM]: I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN
**another part talking about a fly that hit Amy today..don't ask**
***** [7:50 PM]: ok...miss band president...i am being summoned for dinner.
Coley5487 [7:50 PM]: have a good night
***** [7:50 PM]: one more thing..
***** [7:50 PM]: a wise person once told me.....
***** [7:50 PM]: if you have a bad day.....dont fret.....
***** [7:50 PM]: there is always tomorrow to brighten your world.
***** [7:51 PM]: goodnight!
Coley5487 [7:51 PM]: thanks, you too
Coley5487 [7:26 PM]: okay.. well.. as you know this practice wasnt very fun at all. At the end, I was pretty sure that I was going to go to guidance tomorrow and see if i could switch out of band. The deal is that I dont think i have as much commitment as you want us to have. I was so humilated today when you had us do that. I know it was my fault, but it discouraged me so much that I don't feel like I have enough time to practice as much as you'd like.
***** [7:27 PM]: you didnt play bad
***** [7:27 PM]: and I wasnt trying to humiliate anyone
***** [7:28 PM]: dont be discouraged...you are too good a player
***** [7:28 PM]: we are all stressed with other stuff....but it will all work out ok
Coley5487 [7:28 PM]: I was just so discouraged. It's incredibly humiliating. I've heard Alicia play it better, so I know when you put people on the spot, they generally dont do their greatest.
***** [7:29 PM]: that is the only way I can tell who needs what...
***** [7:29 PM]: we've done that before.
***** [7:29 PM]: its the way band is....at whatever level
Coley5487 [7:29 PM]: when you had all teh woodwind go so slowly through the one part and said it was we didnt practice, that was the section that was on our playing tests, i know all the clarinets can play it, we just cant play it together, we needed that tiem to get it together, we had practiced it
Coley5487 [7:30 PM]: adn thats what is so frustrating
***** [7:30 PM]: I always had to play in front of people
***** [7:30 PM]: i know that everyone practiced it for their test...but it has been getting progressively worse since not everyone has kept it up
***** [7:31 PM]: i think some people have got complacent with it....
***** [7:31 PM]: it is something that needs to be practiced everyday...or at least played everyday a few times.
***** [7:31 PM]: same thing with the trumpets today...
***** [7:31 PM]: when we went slow to fast...it got sooo much better...
Coley5487 [7:32 PM]: which is what I am saying....i dont think i have enough time or commitment to be able to do all you ask. you want the people who can do this for you, adn im not so sure i can
***** [7:32 PM]: that is an indication that if everyone spent the 5-10 minutes on their own on the hard stuff...it would be way better in rehearsal
***** [7:32 PM]: it would be much more of a detriment to the band if you left...
***** [7:33 PM]: if you and others really feel this way I would much rather knock the level of music down to A, and keep everyone in
***** [7:33 PM]: I was devasted when Emily left last year...
Coley5487 [7:33 PM]: i dotn want to pull it down for teh people who work for it
***** [7:33 PM]: *devastated
***** [7:34 PM]: you are not one of the ones I am worried about...I know you practice
***** [7:34 PM]: when you can...
***** [7:34 PM]: when swimming lets up...you will have more time...i know.
Coley5487 [7:34 PM]: ...work will get heavier
***** [7:34 PM]: so, do what you can.
***** [7:34 PM]: and I wont put you on the spot again.
Coley5487 [7:34 PM]: i dotn want to bring anyone down
***** [7:35 PM]: you wont.
***** [7:35 PM]: you will if you quit
***** [7:35 PM]: that would be the worst thing for the section
Coley5487 [7:35 PM]: oh, right, make me feel bad
***** [7:35 PM]: its true
***** [7:35 PM]: you have the best tone in the entire section
***** [7:36 PM]: im not trying to make you feel bad...i am trying to build you up
***** [7:36 PM]: I dont know why you have such a bad self concept about your playing
***** [7:36 PM]: you are a great player
Coley5487 [7:36 PM]: and yet im still seated low...i didnt get repayed for hard work...it was embarassign to be seated first, then move to 5th
***** [7:37 PM]: but you said so yourself the music was much more easier in the 3rd part....
***** [7:37 PM]: do you think you would have the time to work up the 1st part?
Coley5487 [7:37 PM]: no
***** [7:37 PM]: seems like playing 3rd fits your disposition with time constraints
***** [7:38 PM]: Erin, Alicia, and Madeline have less going on than you
***** [7:38 PM]: they have more time to practice, prepare auditions, etc.
***** [7:38 PM]: your placement is not a reflection of poor musicianship....
***** [7:39 PM]: all of the players in the section are good
Coley5487 [7:40 PM]: i doesnt seem fun lately
***** [7:40 PM]: work is never fun...
***** [7:41 PM]: fun..is when we play well....
***** [7:41 PM]: and know it.
Coley5487 [7:41 PM]: and unlike grand nationals, this part doesnt pay off
***** [7:41 PM]: how so....
***** [7:41 PM]: going to state is not a payoff?
Coley5487 [7:41 PM]: wouldnt state be next year
***** [7:41 PM]: state is in April
***** [7:41 PM]: if we get a I at Districts....we go to STATE!!!
Coley5487 [7:42 PM]: we got a 1 last year
***** [7:42 PM]: Bellbrook hasnt been to state in decades....well, at least several years.
***** [7:42 PM]: yes, but state festival conflicted with musical last year...
***** [7:42 PM]: we scheduled musical this year around a prospective state trip!!!!
***** [7:42 PM]: last year when we got a I, everyone wanted to go to state
***** [7:43 PM]: so, if we get a I this time...we will go.
**boring part talking about NYC***
***** [7:45 PM]: listen..........dont sweat wind ensembe.
***** [7:46 PM]: i was in a bad mood today anyhow...
***** [7:46 PM]: my dogs ate my minidisc recorder
Coley5487 [7:46 PM]: well its been brewign ever since seating was announced
Coley5487 [7:46 PM]: RIP minidisc
***** [7:46 PM]: i know....dont be embarrassed....
***** [7:46 PM]: those girls are very good, as are you...
***** [7:46 PM]: but if you are really steamed....challenge em.
***** [7:47 PM]: I am putting the sheet up tomorrow.
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]: *cough*phil*cough*
***** [7:47 PM]: exactly.
***** [7:47 PM]: oops..
***** [7:47 PM]: sorry
***** [7:47 PM]: Phil is very good too.
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]: i know he's pretty girly, but uhh....
Coley5487 [7:47 PM]:
***** [7:47 PM]: Besides....Mrs. Siler would never forgive you if you left.
***** [7:47 PM]: :)
***** [7:47 PM]: :(
Coley5487 [7:48 PM]: of course id still do clarinet choir
***** [7:48 PM]: not if you quit WE.
Coley5487 [7:48 PM]: i'll see what happens
***** [7:48 PM]: its only for members of the bands....:(
***** [7:48 PM]: YOU CANNOT QUIT
***** [7:48 PM]: I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN
**another part talking about a fly that hit Amy today..don't ask**
***** [7:50 PM]: ok...miss band president...i am being summoned for dinner.
Coley5487 [7:50 PM]: have a good night
***** [7:50 PM]: one more thing..
***** [7:50 PM]: a wise person once told me.....
***** [7:50 PM]: if you have a bad day.....dont fret.....
***** [7:50 PM]: there is always tomorrow to brighten your world.
***** [7:51 PM]: goodnight!
Coley5487 [7:51 PM]: thanks, you too