I think I'm getting wiser.
Right last week I text my best friend last Saturday to ask where she'd be for her birthday weekend and she said at home and then I got a text saying 'You still coming to my party on Friday?' and I was like 'What party? o_O' and she was like 'the party that's on (this) Friday?' and I was like 'was I informed?' and she said 'I think you answered yes to the thing on facebook' so I looked and because it was Sen & Chihiro's birthday event before her's it doesn't show up on the front page of Facebook so I had forgotten about it as she'd asked me like a MONTH ago and not wrote it in my diary because I've been so busy I've stopped carrying it with me. So I was like 'It says I've accepted but I'm out during the day (Wales) I'll let you know at dinner time if I can make it' so she stopped giving me kisses of obviously I was drunk before the the party so I text her saying 'I'm sorry if I've upset you. I totally forgot about the party thing' and she said 'yes I am upset' so then.... The night I got really cry-y (<< THIS was the reason as to why I was crying really) I text her saying 'I feel I've lost you because I forgot about the thing on Friday' and she text back that she 'was hurt but we're still friends' so I assumed everything was okay. So then today I remembered to text her that I couldn't make it. So then I got:
Erm I know. You say you have no 'real' friends here and that people 'do not understand you'. When actually you should just treat people better. You couldn't even tell me to have a good night then call us best friends? Tonight I'll have a good time with my real friends and you'll be the one missing out. I won't bother inviting u next time.
So I was thinking, "I said to people at UNI at had no close friends with." But anyway I text back:
Eh? I was gunna text you again tonight. I'm sorry my brain sucks. Got all these evens and deadlines to fit in. Not used to it. Our friendship was this thin?
(At this point my tears were about to overflow while we were in the car but I remembered how much we'd laughed already today and Japanese music came on so I was able to hold back) So I ignored my phone for about 6hours and finally looked.
So she replied:
We all have things to fit on you know. I am doing a Dual Degree and I have tons of work to do so you aren't the only one who's busy. But I'd never treat anyone like the way u have. I'm upset with u at the moment but not going to let it ruin my night.
So I replied:
I don't get how it's hurt you so dearly. yes it's your birthday but we're both just as busy and I forgot something you asked me like a month ago. But yeh sorry. Hope your night is a blast xxx
Tonight Kit (someone who I've met this year and am moving in with next year with 2 others) had a go at me when we were alone saying 'you shouldn't be writing depressing things like you did the other night. It really upset me. I want to be your close friend and if you ever feel like that again call me and I'll come over and talk to you. I'm sure Elena and Marleen would do the same thing. So not again okay?' and I was like 'Okay sorry *hugs*'
So I've decided. Why am I SO upset about not having a BEST FRIEND in uni. I should be happy that I have SO many friends and am able to confide in some of them: Karen, Haruka to start. So why should I be so bothered about not having a best friend when I have so many friends that are probably better than 3 or 4 'best friends' plus I can get close to them but not to an extent where my heart can get deeply hurt like it has done in the past: Bekah left me in year 9. Rachel end of college and now Sophie. I've been making such fuss over wanting A best friend at uni when I have so many wonderful people surrounding me that shouldn't they be enough to keep me happy? The answer is yes, yes they do and they won't hurt me because if I have so many I would be affected as much.
Whatcha think? Getting wise, I am? << YODA! xD
Erm I know. You say you have no 'real' friends here and that people 'do not understand you'. When actually you should just treat people better. You couldn't even tell me to have a good night then call us best friends? Tonight I'll have a good time with my real friends and you'll be the one missing out. I won't bother inviting u next time.
So I was thinking, "I said to people at UNI at had no close friends with." But anyway I text back:
Eh? I was gunna text you again tonight. I'm sorry my brain sucks. Got all these evens and deadlines to fit in. Not used to it. Our friendship was this thin?
(At this point my tears were about to overflow while we were in the car but I remembered how much we'd laughed already today and Japanese music came on so I was able to hold back) So I ignored my phone for about 6hours and finally looked.
So she replied:
We all have things to fit on you know. I am doing a Dual Degree and I have tons of work to do so you aren't the only one who's busy. But I'd never treat anyone like the way u have. I'm upset with u at the moment but not going to let it ruin my night.
So I replied:
I don't get how it's hurt you so dearly. yes it's your birthday but we're both just as busy and I forgot something you asked me like a month ago. But yeh sorry. Hope your night is a blast xxx
Tonight Kit (someone who I've met this year and am moving in with next year with 2 others) had a go at me when we were alone saying 'you shouldn't be writing depressing things like you did the other night. It really upset me. I want to be your close friend and if you ever feel like that again call me and I'll come over and talk to you. I'm sure Elena and Marleen would do the same thing. So not again okay?' and I was like 'Okay sorry *hugs*'
So I've decided. Why am I SO upset about not having a BEST FRIEND in uni. I should be happy that I have SO many friends and am able to confide in some of them: Karen, Haruka to start. So why should I be so bothered about not having a best friend when I have so many friends that are probably better than 3 or 4 'best friends' plus I can get close to them but not to an extent where my heart can get deeply hurt like it has done in the past: Bekah left me in year 9. Rachel end of college and now Sophie. I've been making such fuss over wanting A best friend at uni when I have so many wonderful people surrounding me that shouldn't they be enough to keep me happy? The answer is yes, yes they do and they won't hurt me because if I have so many I would be affected as much.
Whatcha think? Getting wise, I am? << YODA! xD