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It's been 1 year since I’ve known the people in the MM chat. Most of the people I met in there have made a huge impact on my life.
>((Derrick, Trish, John, John, James, Tyler, Brittany, Dollie, Holly, Holly, Matt, Travis, Joe, Dylan, Chris, and the rest of them))<. They all have helped me in one way or the other; Especially Derrick and Trish.
Derrick has helped me realize how to communicate with my parents. He’s gotten me through so many tough situations of depression; He's given me awesome remedies. (NUTMEG TEA IS THE BEST), He's one of the greatest people i have ever known. I believe God puts a few special people in our lives, and Derrick is one of them. He’s honest, sincere, a great listener, gives great advice but I can’t see why he has had to live such a hard life. He’s one of the people that you meet and after you get close to them, they’re too good to be true. In my eyes, he’s perfect.
Trish, is an excellent mother, and just like Derrick, very intelligent. She has also helped me with depression, and she has given me some very good screen names. She’s introduced awesome music to me. I adore and respect her for how much stress she undergoes to take care of her children. Not only is she a great mother she’s a very beautiful woman.
I went through a spell or a phase where I lied about my life, but I didn’t lie to Derrick or Trish. With James, the guy who brought me into the chat, I lied to him about everything mostly. IT was right when Josh left me. James brought me into this world of people who also had problems and excellent taste of music, but I was selfish and I didn’t want them to know who I was, because I was scared of rejection. Being that it wasn’t my first time doing it, I wish I would’ve learned my lesson the first time around. I love the people in the MM chat very dearly. I don’t blame them at all for disliking me the way that they do. Hell, Derrick and Trish would kick my ass if they knew what I was doing know. I’ve changed so much since losing my virginity in September. I’m on drugs, I smoke drink, and I look totally different, but I’m happy. Even though I’m lying off the drugs, I’m really focused on life. I’m now a junior, graduating with Honors. I might not be perfect but I’m really proud of myself. Last year on my birthday I remember my e-mail was full of e-cards and everyone told me Happy B-day. I was so happy. I got a camera, and my belly button pierced. I took so many pictures that day and sent them to EVERYONE. (Though most people got offended about the boob shot, I was still wearing my bathing suit top).
I remember Tyler, always said funny things, and Alex would always try to piss everyone off. John, well he was just John. Matt, Ryan, Dylan and Travis….. Were the clowns of the group, but I loved them all.
IT was like being in a small town. Everyone knew everything.
I remember I couldn’t stand Nikki at first. ‘She treated Tyler like shit’ as James told me. But Tyler loved her. So I gave her a chance. I hope they are still happy.
And even though nobody is going to read this, I hope that if anyone of them read this they know that I’m truly sorry for the mistakes that I’ve made, for the agony, pain, and anguish that I put them through.
<3 Midget
Well now we see....