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im sick and tired of all the drama and he said she said crap I really am. I dont see what the big fucking deal is if I wanted to stay with my dad for a few day so I can actually sleep and have fucking quiet here. All it is at my moms house is drama and he said she shit. You can talk to anyone unless its negitive about someone. I can't talk to anyone anymore. I really cant. I really hope I get into Buffalo State so I can live in a Dorm see jessie and anyone else when I want to and get my license and have a car. I dont care if I have to work my ass off to get it. So from now on I'm keeping my mouth shut about everyone and only talking when nessary. I wish I would have stayed in Niagara Falls and gotten an apt or delt with stuff other ways. Anywhere is better then here. But like I said people have been wondering why I'm depressed latley...Well Jessie understands but I'm trying to keep my problems down to a minimall with her so she can have fun with Melanie.. But i wish I was there to hang out with them and have a normal life with my friends..
I cant talk to
Jessie: Cause I want ther to have a great time with MElanie and Lydia and not worri about me....She need a life with no strings attached. I feel like as friends she shouldn't have to deal with my problems. But yeah I still do love her with everything I've got. But I know she wants to be friends for a while and I'll give it to her. I just feel like my mom is just making things ten times as worse for us. And I don't want that. I dont want her to cut me off from her cause of my mother. I really dislike my mom cause of what she is doing to us.
Dee: I really can't talk to her cause one she works all the time. She's got alot of girls she interested in and plus she really doesnt know the real me, cause all we really talk about us my problems cause I vent to her. And I hate it. Plus she always out with her friends and I hate calling people when there out with friends or drunk or hung over. Plus all we do is txt or play phone tag. I don't like it. We only talk like one or twice a month. And she doesnt understand why I wanna be in a relationship over being single and independant.
Sarah: Well she used to be there for me all the time when she lived down stairs but now shes away at college and enjoying her new life. And I dont just wanna call her up one day crying to vent about my parents or anything thats wrong.
Erica: Well I havent talked to her in like forever so it would just be plain out wrong.
Jessica and Joey: enough said about them
I mean my whole life is like....whose lying to me or are they lying about what there saying. I mean I feel like i'm seriously fucked up in the head...People just mess with me, I really hope I getr accepted into Buffalo state so that I can start a new life and not think about going back home to Niagara Falls. But I pray that Jessie doesnt leave an go to SC so that she can help me and we can start fresh and everything. Well I gotta go....ttyl Call if you want 518-248-2127
I cant talk to
Jessie: Cause I want ther to have a great time with MElanie and Lydia and not worri about me....She need a life with no strings attached. I feel like as friends she shouldn't have to deal with my problems. But yeah I still do love her with everything I've got. But I know she wants to be friends for a while and I'll give it to her. I just feel like my mom is just making things ten times as worse for us. And I don't want that. I dont want her to cut me off from her cause of my mother. I really dislike my mom cause of what she is doing to us.
Dee: I really can't talk to her cause one she works all the time. She's got alot of girls she interested in and plus she really doesnt know the real me, cause all we really talk about us my problems cause I vent to her. And I hate it. Plus she always out with her friends and I hate calling people when there out with friends or drunk or hung over. Plus all we do is txt or play phone tag. I don't like it. We only talk like one or twice a month. And she doesnt understand why I wanna be in a relationship over being single and independant.
Sarah: Well she used to be there for me all the time when she lived down stairs but now shes away at college and enjoying her new life. And I dont just wanna call her up one day crying to vent about my parents or anything thats wrong.
Erica: Well I havent talked to her in like forever so it would just be plain out wrong.
Jessica and Joey: enough said about them
I mean my whole life is like....whose lying to me or are they lying about what there saying. I mean I feel like i'm seriously fucked up in the head...People just mess with me, I really hope I getr accepted into Buffalo state so that I can start a new life and not think about going back home to Niagara Falls. But I pray that Jessie doesnt leave an go to SC so that she can help me and we can start fresh and everything. Well I gotta go....ttyl Call if you want 518-248-2127