Mar 09, 2007 18:44
What the heck is it with people being so negative? Why on earth do they give you a hard time when you are doing a beneficially thing when they think it would have been better to do it their way? I mean, if someone tells you that you should have done it this way because it would have almost been better than what you did - How can you not take offense with the way they say it to you? Do you know what I am saying here? Or does it not make sense?
Well it all comes down to - I AM SICK OF ALL THE NEGATIVITY and BEING PUT DOWN. I don't get when I am trying to do something good it always gets criticized in the most negative way - I react to the negativity (of course, who wouldn't- and then get put down for feeling insulted! WHAT THE HECK? I don't understand it. Why am I not allowed to feel insulted by what the person said to me? They don't have any right to get angry. They are one who said to me and I took by it. (I love how everything just gets turned on me)
Getting slightly off subject, as usual. In class yesterday my prof in EdPsy 350 was leacturing about our reading material, which I have not done, and she was lecturing on emotions and how you deal. I didn't know that people deal so differently yet some deal alike, with certain emotions! That is awesome! I thought I was the only one to let my feelings out in a journal, when I feel a certain way. hehe I try to include all my emotions but that rarely gets done since I am so busy being a mom and a student.
Anyway, I am at the point where I think my personality has changed so drastically. But then I think about how I am in such a great mood one minute and when I am around certain negativity, I become an enraged, not speaking for while, can't get my feelings out person. It is so much easier to tell - well whoever reads this- my journal, my feelings to keep from being bottled up. Plus, I strive off the fact that people care enough about me to read about whats new, old, or whatever. I don't know. I really will never stop putting how I feel on my journal...I just have to keep myself sensored a little so that I am not putting other peoples' business every on here. I know there are a lot of people who know what I am talking about because it happens to some.
One feeling that I can't seem to understand is...if you try to do something for someone but it ends up they may not like it, but they tell you they will do or try it, why does the person who suprised you say they give up and why bother because it seems like everything they do is always wrong? Isn't that life? I mean when you are trying to get to know someone, don't you try to find out what they like - I mean you can't assume what they like and dislike all the time. So you either ask or try to suprise them and remember that they like or disliked what you got them. Dont make them feel like crud when you dont get it right. You KEEP TRYING! It called Trial and Error. You want to achieve success - especially when it involves someone you want in your life. Come on - am I wrong?
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