traditional heailng, busy living
Yesterday I decided to pull out all the stops in terms of my knowledge in the traditional healing arts or the traditional as I have (with the help of my healing guides and teachers) been able to adapt to the modernish and international life that I lead. I needed to do that last night with every cell of mine in order to be here whole and clear today. I incorporated movement, ritual cleansing, prayers and a type of imagination-journeying practice, all of which both brought me a lot of catharsis (this grows over time as you do these practices. they become more familiar and cathartic at the same time) and some insight, the most important of which was to contact a particularly well-known Sufi teacher here in Istanbul and create more of a relationship with her in addition to bringing to her on a practical level the fact that I cant seem to be happy with my job here, yet want to serve people in Turkey very much. She is doing the same thing on a much bigger scale than me and so perhaps she has some insight or maybe even a practical suggestion. I might be willing to volunteer some of my time for her because she is a very scholarly woman and I know she has people working on translations of her work into English. Let's see.
Afterwards I went as directly to bed as I could with a minimum of distraction because I really needed that, even though I had also wanted to speak to someone at around that same time. Instead, I slept deeply and like a baby. I had a powerful little dream in which I was in an Orthodox church cleaning the glass over the icons on the iconostasis. What a wonderful and clear message. :-) Its good to feel clean and for the divine image to be shining through that cleanliness, inşallah.
I must say I am feeling very sensitive today and that is ok but an interesting reality to try and manage in those not-particularly-sensitive although seeming nice-enough university environment.
What shines out from the experience is the non-dual reality and at the same time the play of emotions that lead to the need for the cleansing is there. It leaves me knowing that I must develop more strength at a very deep level but that indeed part of our process is the cleansing of stuck energies before going deeper. This is certainly something that I have learned from my curander@s and assorted other friends on the path of healing.
My sensitivity, as I said, has been heightened but hopefully by the time I finish the day today I will have quite a bit on my spiritual and practical to-do lost (its basically the same list, I am starting to see) set in order.
Afterwards I went as directly to bed as I could with a minimum of distraction because I really needed that, even though I had also wanted to speak to someone at around that same time. Instead, I slept deeply and like a baby. I had a powerful little dream in which I was in an Orthodox church cleaning the glass over the icons on the iconostasis. What a wonderful and clear message. :-) Its good to feel clean and for the divine image to be shining through that cleanliness, inşallah.
I must say I am feeling very sensitive today and that is ok but an interesting reality to try and manage in those not-particularly-sensitive although seeming nice-enough university environment.
What shines out from the experience is the non-dual reality and at the same time the play of emotions that lead to the need for the cleansing is there. It leaves me knowing that I must develop more strength at a very deep level but that indeed part of our process is the cleansing of stuck energies before going deeper. This is certainly something that I have learned from my curander@s and assorted other friends on the path of healing.
My sensitivity, as I said, has been heightened but hopefully by the time I finish the day today I will have quite a bit on my spiritual and practical to-do lost (its basically the same list, I am starting to see) set in order.