uh huh....yup.
so i feel like a lot has happened since the last time i posted but i dont think its been a lot.....
i signed up for classes at PCC, i dont like the fact that im taking classes at PCC bc in my opinion for my standards its settling (not good enough), but i applied to USF and im not going to hear from them for awhile and it will give me something to do until fall. plus, ive been really bored lately just working and searching for something to do, i want some type of schedule, structure, whatever you want to call it. for the past couple months ive felt like i was stagnating and growing like a fungus just...there, useless. so im taking 2 classes there and the 2 classes that i actually want to take and im extremely interested in are photography and philosophy.....but money prevents certain things....just 2 classes is a lot and so are the books...im breaking my parents...haha...it was really random. but im going to at least be able to take the photography class, i'll pay for it myself damnit....or pay for photography and my parents pay for philosophy....so they'll pay for 3 like originally planned and i'll pay for one and everything else....
i'll get my way damnit....
ive been disappointed in certain people lately...like ive been used and discarded....but ya know, thats life and shit happens....
my mom is better, but not all the way....she needs a happy medium....
ive been surprised at certain reactions ive had towards people and surprised at how they are....what their actions are, words, changing in words, but not changing their words bc they're correcting themselves but changing them to "fit in"...like "thats what i said in the first place"....hard to explain...im just surprised at these certain things....from these particular people.....
im getting tired of being treated how im being treated w/some people....im not an idiot and im fully aware of the fact that im not....i make mistakes...everyone does...but im not stupid and i take great offense to people making me out to be....and i take great offense to people not opening their mind to what i have to say and stopping me to say "no" before i even make my initial point and then assuming that im angry and in a bad mood and then making me out to be a pissed off idiot.....hah...
ok maybe not a lot has happened but a lot of thoughts and realizations have happened since my last entry....
haha
p.s. my tooth hurts.......p.p.s. im a pro bc i ate TACO BELL 2 HOURS AFTER I GOT MY WISDOM TEETH OUT....bitches.
i signed up for classes at PCC, i dont like the fact that im taking classes at PCC bc in my opinion for my standards its settling (not good enough), but i applied to USF and im not going to hear from them for awhile and it will give me something to do until fall. plus, ive been really bored lately just working and searching for something to do, i want some type of schedule, structure, whatever you want to call it. for the past couple months ive felt like i was stagnating and growing like a fungus just...there, useless. so im taking 2 classes there and the 2 classes that i actually want to take and im extremely interested in are photography and philosophy.....but money prevents certain things....just 2 classes is a lot and so are the books...im breaking my parents...haha...it was really random. but im going to at least be able to take the photography class, i'll pay for it myself damnit....or pay for photography and my parents pay for philosophy....so they'll pay for 3 like originally planned and i'll pay for one and everything else....
i'll get my way damnit....
ive been disappointed in certain people lately...like ive been used and discarded....but ya know, thats life and shit happens....
my mom is better, but not all the way....she needs a happy medium....
ive been surprised at certain reactions ive had towards people and surprised at how they are....what their actions are, words, changing in words, but not changing their words bc they're correcting themselves but changing them to "fit in"...like "thats what i said in the first place"....hard to explain...im just surprised at these certain things....from these particular people.....
im getting tired of being treated how im being treated w/some people....im not an idiot and im fully aware of the fact that im not....i make mistakes...everyone does...but im not stupid and i take great offense to people making me out to be....and i take great offense to people not opening their mind to what i have to say and stopping me to say "no" before i even make my initial point and then assuming that im angry and in a bad mood and then making me out to be a pissed off idiot.....hah...
ok maybe not a lot has happened but a lot of thoughts and realizations have happened since my last entry....
haha
p.s. my tooth hurts.......p.p.s. im a pro bc i ate TACO BELL 2 HOURS AFTER I GOT MY WISDOM TEETH OUT....bitches.