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i just realized something
my 18th birthday is in a couple weeks...
my hawaii plan fell through...i have no plans, i want to go out and party, club, go to strip clubs....
but i dont see any of that panning out....
i ask people to go clubbing w/me but they dont want/like to....
i want to have a party and especially, i want to get laid....
but i dont see that happening either....
i realized that im going to be spending another birthday...alone...
i had so many plans for my 18th, people say its not a big deal, but to me it is.....
i spent last year crying and alone....
and i think im going to be doing the same thing this year...
i want someone to take me out and hide a party from me....surprise me
i want to have a good time w/people that might just care about me for that one night....
i just dont want to do it alone....again.
my 18th birthday is in a couple weeks...
my hawaii plan fell through...i have no plans, i want to go out and party, club, go to strip clubs....
but i dont see any of that panning out....
i ask people to go clubbing w/me but they dont want/like to....
i want to have a party and especially, i want to get laid....
but i dont see that happening either....
i realized that im going to be spending another birthday...alone...
i had so many plans for my 18th, people say its not a big deal, but to me it is.....
i spent last year crying and alone....
and i think im going to be doing the same thing this year...
i want someone to take me out and hide a party from me....surprise me
i want to have a good time w/people that might just care about me for that one night....
i just dont want to do it alone....again.