Confused!!
Omg Mr Miami really knows how to pull me back in just when i thought i'd gotten myself out of this mess!! he truly is good at playing the game!
Emails this week consisted of me asking if he'd come visit me when i move to NYC and him saying of course he would and how he would invite me to stay with him in Miami when i get time off work. Then i randomly said 'its a shame we couldnt make things work' and he was like 'no its not that its just that u live on the other side of the world and its bad timing for us'. WTF... seriously. I'm so sick and tired of his mixed signals... does that mean that he wants us to be together, but just not right now? i mean, when will 'good' timing be for us? when i move to NYC? why is it that i have to move?!? why can't he make the sacrifice and move here??! omg this is so fkd up!
i'm so confused bout wat he wants... clearly he still wants to stay in contact, which i'm totally cool with... but pls don't lead me on!! things he says makes me think that he does wanna be with me, then other things i read on his fb tell me he's only playing me. One conversation i read was him saying on his fb status that he got really good grades then some girl commented and he was like 'so do i get a kiss for getting good grades' and she was like 'my kisses aren't easy to get' or something... blah! fkn player!
THEN... i read another conversation from his friend who said 'wat happened? not in love with manny pacquiao anymore??' (he's that famous filo boxer- his friend was obviously referring to me coz im filo) and Mr Miami said 'lmao yes but only imaginate... very far away (which he said in spanish), then his friend replied 'late night skypes!' to which Mr Miami said 'no skype... we use our memories and awe away' or something...
So clearly, he still thinks about me... but even his friends r suggesting that he skypes with me!! i mean, im reluctant coz im not good with technology, but fkn hell... it'd be nice if he suggested it... at least then i know he's making the effort to contact me. Omg i'm SO done with this bullshit. Time to move on i think!!
In other news, Ivy boy msg'd me on sunday nyt asking if i wanted to catch up with him and he said (at least before u move to new york!) which was SO cute!! then he was like 'lunch, drinks, anything really...' aww he's keen! so we tried to work out when we're free and tomorrow nyt worked out for us. He said he'd be out on friday, so i suggested that i meet up with him wherever he is. I prefer it this way, its casual and nothing too serious like a formal date, which is waaayyy too nerve racking for me!! fingers crossed he doesn't cancel on me!! omg if he does, i'm gonna be so pissed!! i'm probably just overanalysing... coz he did msg and say that he was looking forward to seeing me tomorrow nyt... aww!!
Anyway, its time i confront Mr Miami and tell him that if 'good timing' is him waiting for me to move to NYC, then i dont expect him to wait for me... its not fair and if we really are meant to be, it'll happen in due time. In the meantime, i'm happy to go with the flow and see how things turn out with Ivy boy!!! MANLY IS CLOSER THAN MIAMI...
Emails this week consisted of me asking if he'd come visit me when i move to NYC and him saying of course he would and how he would invite me to stay with him in Miami when i get time off work. Then i randomly said 'its a shame we couldnt make things work' and he was like 'no its not that its just that u live on the other side of the world and its bad timing for us'. WTF... seriously. I'm so sick and tired of his mixed signals... does that mean that he wants us to be together, but just not right now? i mean, when will 'good' timing be for us? when i move to NYC? why is it that i have to move?!? why can't he make the sacrifice and move here??! omg this is so fkd up!
i'm so confused bout wat he wants... clearly he still wants to stay in contact, which i'm totally cool with... but pls don't lead me on!! things he says makes me think that he does wanna be with me, then other things i read on his fb tell me he's only playing me. One conversation i read was him saying on his fb status that he got really good grades then some girl commented and he was like 'so do i get a kiss for getting good grades' and she was like 'my kisses aren't easy to get' or something... blah! fkn player!
THEN... i read another conversation from his friend who said 'wat happened? not in love with manny pacquiao anymore??' (he's that famous filo boxer- his friend was obviously referring to me coz im filo) and Mr Miami said 'lmao yes but only imaginate... very far away (which he said in spanish), then his friend replied 'late night skypes!' to which Mr Miami said 'no skype... we use our memories and awe away' or something...
So clearly, he still thinks about me... but even his friends r suggesting that he skypes with me!! i mean, im reluctant coz im not good with technology, but fkn hell... it'd be nice if he suggested it... at least then i know he's making the effort to contact me. Omg i'm SO done with this bullshit. Time to move on i think!!
In other news, Ivy boy msg'd me on sunday nyt asking if i wanted to catch up with him and he said (at least before u move to new york!) which was SO cute!! then he was like 'lunch, drinks, anything really...' aww he's keen! so we tried to work out when we're free and tomorrow nyt worked out for us. He said he'd be out on friday, so i suggested that i meet up with him wherever he is. I prefer it this way, its casual and nothing too serious like a formal date, which is waaayyy too nerve racking for me!! fingers crossed he doesn't cancel on me!! omg if he does, i'm gonna be so pissed!! i'm probably just overanalysing... coz he did msg and say that he was looking forward to seeing me tomorrow nyt... aww!!
Anyway, its time i confront Mr Miami and tell him that if 'good timing' is him waiting for me to move to NYC, then i dont expect him to wait for me... its not fair and if we really are meant to be, it'll happen in due time. In the meantime, i'm happy to go with the flow and see how things turn out with Ivy boy!!! MANLY IS CLOSER THAN MIAMI...