My brain is slowly coming back online..
Someone friended me the other day but never asked me to friend them back.. so I went and looked at their journal and it is entirely in Russian. And she (I am just assuming it's a she) has only a few friends.. and the only interest we share is Sam Winchester.
How strange is that? It's not like she can even see anything I write cause I am friends only. So what's the point?
So I actually left my apartment today. LOL This is a big deal cause I haven't left my apartment in at least a week. Just the thought of it gave me major anxiety. I was living in a fog.. I felt extremely disconnected. All I wanted to do is read.. mostly fanfiction. It was my escape from reality. But I couldn't focus enough to actually do any real thinking. It was a weird feeling.. hard to explain. I made a few comments.. but couldn't organize my thoughts enough to make my own entries..or deal with reality at all.
But I feel a little better today.. so I went and cashed my check and came over to my parent's house for dinner. And I would like to go for a walk tonight.
My Dad is in a mood. *shakes head* I can't stand it when he gets like this. It seems today is be cruel to my Mom day. He keeps insulting her and talking down to her being really demeaning.
I will probably write more later.. since I am feeling better tonight. Who knows how I will feel tomarrow though. I hate my brain.
How strange is that? It's not like she can even see anything I write cause I am friends only. So what's the point?
So I actually left my apartment today. LOL This is a big deal cause I haven't left my apartment in at least a week. Just the thought of it gave me major anxiety. I was living in a fog.. I felt extremely disconnected. All I wanted to do is read.. mostly fanfiction. It was my escape from reality. But I couldn't focus enough to actually do any real thinking. It was a weird feeling.. hard to explain. I made a few comments.. but couldn't organize my thoughts enough to make my own entries..or deal with reality at all.
But I feel a little better today.. so I went and cashed my check and came over to my parent's house for dinner. And I would like to go for a walk tonight.
My Dad is in a mood. *shakes head* I can't stand it when he gets like this. It seems today is be cruel to my Mom day. He keeps insulting her and talking down to her being really demeaning.
I will probably write more later.. since I am feeling better tonight. Who knows how I will feel tomarrow though. I hate my brain.