I can't believe it..
I can't believe that I STILL have not watched or read anything about the LA Con or Eyecon.. I haven't watched any videos or read any transcripts of the panels..
I think it is because I have been so depressed lately. Which is strange because you'd think that watching the boys would cheer me up.. but it doesn't. Not this time at least.
Mostly it just makes me jealous. I know that sounds petty or whatever, but I can't help it. I wanted to be there. Words can not describe how much I wanted to be there. But I am broke and there was no way. Which really sucks because it was so close.. I could have taken a bus. I live only a few hours away from LA.
So seeing and reading about how awesome it was and how much fun everyone got to have.. just makes me feel worse. So I am just ignoring it this time. Maybe someday in the future I will feel up to going back and looking at everything.
But with my life the way it is right now. I can't deal with it.
I think it is because I have been so depressed lately. Which is strange because you'd think that watching the boys would cheer me up.. but it doesn't. Not this time at least.
Mostly it just makes me jealous. I know that sounds petty or whatever, but I can't help it. I wanted to be there. Words can not describe how much I wanted to be there. But I am broke and there was no way. Which really sucks because it was so close.. I could have taken a bus. I live only a few hours away from LA.
So seeing and reading about how awesome it was and how much fun everyone got to have.. just makes me feel worse. So I am just ignoring it this time. Maybe someday in the future I will feel up to going back and looking at everything.
But with my life the way it is right now. I can't deal with it.