one more day
omg...i thought my check was gonna be decent this week. BARELY enough to keep me out of debt and bounced checks.
i think.
but thats ok. i worked a buttload these past...2 weekends...that my check next week SHOULD be good. if not, ill complain fo'sho'.
so this is my last weekend in giftwrap. im sooooo fuckin nervous about going onto the floor. i dont wanna. i wanna stay here. i dont even know what to do with myself when im out there!!!! i need to talk to human resources and to my new manager, hopefully my new manager will be here tomorrow.
i managed to sleep for about an hour an a half and i feel like i got drunk last night. i had one freaken shot!!! maybe its just the smell of everything that got to me. gha i have so many messes to finish cleaning when i get back to my room.
i just wanna go home and have everything be calm. i wanna go home and walk my puppy...i havent done that in forever. ill take her to get her fur done and ill take her to the park. i wanna go rollerblading like i used to and run through sprinklers. i wanna be a kid in a grown up way. i wanna be worry free and eat good food and be in a familiar setting with familiar smells and the warmth of an occupied house as opposed to coming to a cold room day after day. i wanna see the familiar yellow walls and the fluffy full sized bed that i put clothes on if i dont want to hang them up and the beige carpet that i never see because of miscellanious person objects strewn on the floor. >sigh< i wanna look out my window and see people washing their cars (;P) or playing basketball and i wanna drive down the street with the tedious stop signs and i wanna inhale the brown air.
i just wanna be comfortable.
i think.
but thats ok. i worked a buttload these past...2 weekends...that my check next week SHOULD be good. if not, ill complain fo'sho'.
so this is my last weekend in giftwrap. im sooooo fuckin nervous about going onto the floor. i dont wanna. i wanna stay here. i dont even know what to do with myself when im out there!!!! i need to talk to human resources and to my new manager, hopefully my new manager will be here tomorrow.
i managed to sleep for about an hour an a half and i feel like i got drunk last night. i had one freaken shot!!! maybe its just the smell of everything that got to me. gha i have so many messes to finish cleaning when i get back to my room.
i just wanna go home and have everything be calm. i wanna go home and walk my puppy...i havent done that in forever. ill take her to get her fur done and ill take her to the park. i wanna go rollerblading like i used to and run through sprinklers. i wanna be a kid in a grown up way. i wanna be worry free and eat good food and be in a familiar setting with familiar smells and the warmth of an occupied house as opposed to coming to a cold room day after day. i wanna see the familiar yellow walls and the fluffy full sized bed that i put clothes on if i dont want to hang them up and the beige carpet that i never see because of miscellanious person objects strewn on the floor. >sigh< i wanna look out my window and see people washing their cars (;P) or playing basketball and i wanna drive down the street with the tedious stop signs and i wanna inhale the brown air.
i just wanna be comfortable.