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Damn it, I feel so insecure right now. My hands are shaking and I can't stop thinking. I just feel really insecure right now.
I am not working as hard as I think I should be... right now I just feel stupid. I have an ochem test tomorrow, and then things are only going to get worse from there. I don't like how he puts so much faith in me... when i can't seem to find any.
I know God is with me, and that's about the only thing I feel, other than empty. I've been trying to avoid letting the insecurity and the stress get to me... but it's sad because I can't get rid of it and it won't go away.
I feel like I have to keep up my same grades and do the same level of work that I had done before... I just feel so pressured... crammed into a box without air holes. I'm too high up and I can't come down without plummeting through the floor right now.
It sucks.
I just feel so insignificant... so powerless in comparison to the other things that I am facing and other things that I have to face right now. I feel like everyone can look straight through me and see all these things that I'm trying to hide and all these feelings I can't escape from.
I am not working as hard as I think I should be... right now I just feel stupid. I have an ochem test tomorrow, and then things are only going to get worse from there. I don't like how he puts so much faith in me... when i can't seem to find any.
I know God is with me, and that's about the only thing I feel, other than empty. I've been trying to avoid letting the insecurity and the stress get to me... but it's sad because I can't get rid of it and it won't go away.
I feel like I have to keep up my same grades and do the same level of work that I had done before... I just feel so pressured... crammed into a box without air holes. I'm too high up and I can't come down without plummeting through the floor right now.
It sucks.
I just feel so insignificant... so powerless in comparison to the other things that I am facing and other things that I have to face right now. I feel like everyone can look straight through me and see all these things that I'm trying to hide and all these feelings I can't escape from.