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This is just me randomly writing thoughts from my head right now but...
I feel alone. I shouldn't feel alone. I guess most people do but I feel more alone than ever. Not because Im single or because I don't spend much time with people or talking to people. I don't know why. I feel like I just keep hurting people around me. I feel like I am always pushing other people away. I don't know why. I don't know why I can't just lead a normal life. I don't know why I can't just go on and ignore my problems, but they never fucking go away. I hate it. Sometimes I wish I could just do things for my self more. I care about other people too much. I care about how their lives are going not mine. Through my whole life I've been trying to improve thinnking for myself. And yes sometimes my actions prove that this has improved. But inside all I think about is not me, but the other person. And I don't know if that is good or bad. But it seems bad to me, because it's done me no good. Why do I fucking care?
I feel alone. I shouldn't feel alone. I guess most people do but I feel more alone than ever. Not because Im single or because I don't spend much time with people or talking to people. I don't know why. I feel like I just keep hurting people around me. I feel like I am always pushing other people away. I don't know why. I don't know why I can't just lead a normal life. I don't know why I can't just go on and ignore my problems, but they never fucking go away. I hate it. Sometimes I wish I could just do things for my self more. I care about other people too much. I care about how their lives are going not mine. Through my whole life I've been trying to improve thinnking for myself. And yes sometimes my actions prove that this has improved. But inside all I think about is not me, but the other person. And I don't know if that is good or bad. But it seems bad to me, because it's done me no good. Why do I fucking care?