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for some reason lately i've been in a real blah mood. and i think i know why but im not sure. all i can say is having someone in my life is something that means a whole lot more than i expected. I don't know why but all i can think about is having someone that i care about to actually care about me and i know there are some friends out there that will say "but we do care for you" but not i the way i want to be cared for. and what's bothering me is that people are saying "i love you" so much. DO THEY KNOW WHAT IT MEANS, ok i might not know what it means either but to me love is wanting someone to be happy even if your not, love is willing to care for when not cared for in return, love is willing to give when not given to, and love is something hard to find withour losing it first and i think that i've lost it because there was a time i would do anything to make someone happy, even if i wasn't...i cared for someone that didn't care for me, i was willing to give and not be given back anything and now that it's gone..and i see what i lost i think it was love but eh lifes like that i guess, where you can give and give and not get what you want. welcome to life,