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I am having a very bad day. >.< I don't want to rant and rave, but I do want to get some of it off my chest before I completely freak out. It's just a bunch of little things that keep adding up, and I feel like I'm going to snap. I'm TIRED of trying to make her happy, and him happy, and then having so and so throw a fit because I wasn't there for this or because I did something for THAT person, and I'm tired of pushing aside things... I have so many 'to whom it may concern' sort of things I want to say right now, but... I recognize I'm mad, and I do care about people, so I won't, but god damn it if I'm not just upset enough to think the whole population needs to be hit by a fucking train sometimes.
I'm just... Annoyed. I had a day planned, and NOTHING that I hoped for came true, instead, it seems one person after another needs something, or is angry, and... Well. Fuck it.
I believe I shall do what a dear friend of mine once did, and vanish into the background for a bit, at least in the way of direct communication, until I'm convinced I can deal with disappointment and people again without pulling out my own hair. I'm just not in the mood to have more people unload on me, and I'm not in the mood to chew on heads right now. No, I'm not posting this for attention. If anything, I hate getting it when I'm pissed. I'm just letting people who know me know what's up. I'll be back on, I swear. I'm too addicted not to. I just need a break, from one part of my life.
If I love you, you know it. If you love me, leave me the hell alone until I'm myself again.
I'm just... Annoyed. I had a day planned, and NOTHING that I hoped for came true, instead, it seems one person after another needs something, or is angry, and... Well. Fuck it.
I believe I shall do what a dear friend of mine once did, and vanish into the background for a bit, at least in the way of direct communication, until I'm convinced I can deal with disappointment and people again without pulling out my own hair. I'm just not in the mood to have more people unload on me, and I'm not in the mood to chew on heads right now. No, I'm not posting this for attention. If anything, I hate getting it when I'm pissed. I'm just letting people who know me know what's up. I'll be back on, I swear. I'm too addicted not to. I just need a break, from one part of my life.
If I love you, you know it. If you love me, leave me the hell alone until I'm myself again.